Once again, I enter the realm of procrastination. (:
Despite the variety of troubles plaguing my mind-oral presentation, mcq test- I'm still trying to finish up writing. I've completed the body, but I've no clue how to conclude the piece.
I'm gonna need help to wrap this up. Maybe I'm not looking deep enough into myself to garner that inspiration.
I reread a post. With the benefit of hindsight, I'm finally able to realize how naive I was. Tugged along, being led forward by a driving force far from my own. It was that very naivety that made the post so much harder to read. This is going to sound rather odd but.. I was touched, to have read what was written, though by my own hands. Words unspoken yet understood, an earnest intention.
A conversation with my distant self, left behind with the passing of time.
"I cringe at the thought of the year ending"
To be here now, I am very well aware. That year has ended.
In spite of it all, maybe I'm glad. Pardon my conceited tone but I realize the good I'm capable of doing. To be someone genuine. A sentiment that even I am unable to explain with mere words. Yet, a sentiment misplaced.
Perhaps it's time to shed this outlook and appreciate the experience. After all, not everyone is lucky enough to get a chance to learn such a valuable life lesson.
Bak kata pepatah, "dada manusia tidak dapat diselam"
Cause yeah, I can be a nice guy. LOL.
Sunday, May 15, 2011
Dedication
Well, it's much better than I could do.
Can you hear their laughter too?
I will not harm you the same way.
Doodle #82
I would say that today wasn't exactly the best of days, for several reasons.
I finally logged back onto Blogger but my previous edited post went missing. Luckily, the rough draft for it was salvaged and I (hope) managed to write it in an even better manner. Who knew that changing a single word changes the entire nature of the sentence.
Later on in the day, I found out that I'velost misplaced my States of Matter notes. With it, my workings for the set examples vanished. I admit, I was pretty upset then, especially since I had just opened my Self-Assessment Test. So I pressed on with it, aided by online notes. Scored below 70% for it.
Once again, my nonchalant attitude towards my studies has been proved. I should stop squandering what little time I have left and truly begin my studying regime. I know what I can do if I study, the only problem is getting myself started.
Well, a friend of mine got into a rather problematic situation today. I shall not elaborate but it was thankfully, all ended well. Felt an overwhelming sense of relief after that.
On an unrelated note, here I am again. Writing down my innocuous thoughts down into black and white.
What you're about to read probably proves just how stressed I am about the coming few weeks.
Aku kian resah akan minggu ini. Adakah persediaanku cukup rapi dan mematuhi segala peraturan yang telah ditetapkan? Boleh dikatakan bahawa senario terburuk amat merimaskan. Aku pernah melalui pelbagai cabaran yang lebih sukar daripada ini. Walaobagaimanapun, aku mempunyai segala informasi dan persediaan yang cukup rapi untuk melepasi dugaan ujian tersebut.
Oh screw it, I was never good at BM. I shall revert to my language of choice, English.
I tried. :))
For now, I've to figure out how to personalize that post even further. ;D
I finally logged back onto Blogger but my previous edited post went missing. Luckily, the rough draft for it was salvaged and I (hope) managed to write it in an even better manner. Who knew that changing a single word changes the entire nature of the sentence.
Later on in the day, I found out that I've
Once again, my nonchalant attitude towards my studies has been proved. I should stop squandering what little time I have left and truly begin my studying regime. I know what I can do if I study, the only problem is getting myself started.
Well, a friend of mine got into a rather problematic situation today. I shall not elaborate but it was thankfully, all ended well. Felt an overwhelming sense of relief after that.
On an unrelated note, here I am again. Writing down my innocuous thoughts down into black and white.
What you're about to read probably proves just how stressed I am about the coming few weeks.
Aku kian resah akan minggu ini. Adakah persediaanku cukup rapi dan mematuhi segala peraturan yang telah ditetapkan? Boleh dikatakan bahawa senario terburuk amat merimaskan. Aku pernah melalui pelbagai cabaran yang lebih sukar daripada ini. Walaobagaimanapun, aku mempunyai segala informasi dan persediaan yang cukup rapi untuk melepasi dugaan ujian tersebut.
Oh screw it, I was never good at BM. I shall revert to my language of choice, English.
I tried. :))
For now, I've to figure out how to personalize that post even further. ;D
Wednesday, May 11, 2011
Doodle #80
So I was inspired to write another piece.
To date, I've only written two such pieces, and the former was written almost 3 months ago. I'd see it as a conclusion.
Today's piece had no such tone. :)
Circling speeches aside, felt good today.
Met Itianne and Mun who dropped by Monash. Even Sunway-ians know how awesome our library bean bags are. :D
WHEEEEE. Let the hyperness set in!
Back to work though, calling it early tonight. Not in any mood to start work. PROCRASTINATION. :)
Kinoc, out.
To date, I've only written two such pieces, and the former was written almost 3 months ago. I'd see it as a conclusion.
Today's piece had no such tone. :)
Circling speeches aside, felt good today.
Met Itianne and Mun who dropped by Monash. Even Sunway-ians know how awesome our library bean bags are. :D
WHEEEEE. Let the hyperness set in!
Back to work though, calling it early tonight. Not in any mood to start work. PROCRASTINATION. :)
Kinoc, out.
Tuesday, May 10, 2011
Doodle #79
I couldn't help but sign in prior to calling it a day.
Guilty of taking the day off to slack today. I must say, the nagging thought at the back of my head will not let me live it down.
Current worries?
For starters, I've an ABE-F Written Test tomorrow. Heard it's only 11 questions but we've been designated a full hour to tackle it. It been on my nerves lately, or just today.
Then, there's the ever worrisome oral presentation. Having been told that content carries no points whatsoever, I set out to slash my points. I admit, it felt rather painful to mangle my hard work but alas, things had to be done. Couldn't present much within the 10 minute time constraint and I'm very sure my current slides overshoot the time limit. All that remains is to sort out my slides and practice over the weekend.
It seems I've gotten rid of speedtrain Kin Hoe. In his place, stutter and mumble Kin Hoe popped up. Urghh.. Maybe it's the lack of practice. I'm hoping to be able to bring out the speaker side of myself again. If only I was as motivated as I was for my Oral Examinations for last year. I had to speak to an Australian Examiner through a web program. Luckily it was purely audio, my excessive hand motions and descriptive motions may have made me look rather cumbersome on screen. Nevertheless, I was rather satisfied with the feedback then. I think I even spoke to a classmate I've never spoken to in months just because my tone had disrupted her exams. It's a little late now but sorryyyyyyy. Hahahah. :)
So yeah, no speedtrain, no stutter. BULLSHIT WITH CONFIDENCE. As we'll be graded based on our demeanor and speaking skills. I guess.
Lastly, Physio's still been on my mind. Finally kicked it into gear. Blood Brain Barrier.
Kinoc, out. :)
Guilty of taking the day off to slack today. I must say, the nagging thought at the back of my head will not let me live it down.
Current worries?
For starters, I've an ABE-F Written Test tomorrow. Heard it's only 11 questions but we've been designated a full hour to tackle it. It been on my nerves lately, or just today.
Then, there's the ever worrisome oral presentation. Having been told that content carries no points whatsoever, I set out to slash my points. I admit, it felt rather painful to mangle my hard work but alas, things had to be done. Couldn't present much within the 10 minute time constraint and I'm very sure my current slides overshoot the time limit. All that remains is to sort out my slides and practice over the weekend.
It seems I've gotten rid of speedtrain Kin Hoe. In his place, stutter and mumble Kin Hoe popped up. Urghh.. Maybe it's the lack of practice. I'm hoping to be able to bring out the speaker side of myself again. If only I was as motivated as I was for my Oral Examinations for last year. I had to speak to an Australian Examiner through a web program. Luckily it was purely audio, my excessive hand motions and descriptive motions may have made me look rather cumbersome on screen. Nevertheless, I was rather satisfied with the feedback then. I think I even spoke to a classmate I've never spoken to in months just because my tone had disrupted her exams. It's a little late now but sorryyyyyyy. Hahahah. :)
So yeah, no speedtrain, no stutter. BULLSHIT WITH CONFIDENCE. As we'll be graded based on our demeanor and speaking skills. I guess.
Lastly, Physio's still been on my mind. Finally kicked it into gear. Blood Brain Barrier.
Kinoc, out. :)
Monday, May 9, 2011
Doodle #78 : Weather
I want some more, what are you waiting for? Take a bite of my heart tonight.
Indeed, it's been a blazing and rather scorching week. For the first time, I'm rejecting the sunshine in my life. It just goes to show that too much of a good thing is bad for you.
Not trying to sound fussy but I can't say I really enjoy this weather, I'd prefer a more temperate one. You know, calm winds, cloudy sky, dawn or dusk kind of weather. Those are truly relaxing moments.
And to think less than 2 weeks ago, we were experiencing continuous heavy rainfall each day. I still remember sitting along the corridor at 7:30AM being blasted by cold winds. Personally, there's no better way to start the morning than a much needed morning breeze. :)
On an unrelated and somewhat more serious note..
I think I'm getting the hang of Physiology, thank heavens. When you lack the natural inclination, you compensate with effort. That's something I've been shaped to learn. Then again, I'm even starting to slack in Chemistry. Maybe I'm just giving myself a hard time with the double standards I set for my own work, especially when it came to that subject. To have completely missed out on such a simple solution to a question of such a level is something I won't let myself forget so soon.
It's not much when you can't solve 2 questions, but when those are the only questions that matter, that's big trouble.
Sorry for that personal rant. Perhaps we'd like to move on to a lighter note? :)
I'm slowly getting comfortable with where I am now, in my course, or just life in general. Sure I may not be the best of persons, but I do try. :) Everyone has their own kinks in life. I'm looking forward to the coming few years in this course of mine.
I hope to hold some gatherings soon, it's been way too long since I've seen them. I won't deny that I'm a control freak when it comes to these things. Never one to settle for unexpected changed, lest they be for the better. After all, my table was square. :)
Distance shall be closed,
The strings joining our hearts shorten,
Bringing us back together,
It takes not a mere physical connection,
For our souls are in tune,
Led astray by the passage of time,
Faith shall reconcile lost hearts.
Should doubt ever cloud your mind,
Never forget the trust you've bestowed,
And look within yourself,
To find the answer,
For no expanse can truly divide us.
Dudes and dudetts, we owe it to each other to hold that one final outing we never had. No complaining, no last minute cancellations, no outsiders, like how things should be. :3
For our time isn't as long as we'd expect.
We really shouldn't have had that last minute cancellation that other time. Why drag in such a big crowd? Shouldn't each other suffice? :)
WHOOPS. Slipped into that tone again. Well, spontaneous inspiration ftw.
Final note, stumbled across a pretty interesting quotation earlier,
Love makes time pass, and time makes love pass.
That's bout it, Kinoc, out. :)
Indeed, it's been a blazing and rather scorching week. For the first time, I'm rejecting the sunshine in my life. It just goes to show that too much of a good thing is bad for you.
Not trying to sound fussy but I can't say I really enjoy this weather, I'd prefer a more temperate one. You know, calm winds, cloudy sky, dawn or dusk kind of weather. Those are truly relaxing moments.
And to think less than 2 weeks ago, we were experiencing continuous heavy rainfall each day. I still remember sitting along the corridor at 7:30AM being blasted by cold winds. Personally, there's no better way to start the morning than a much needed morning breeze. :)
On an unrelated and somewhat more serious note..
I think I'm getting the hang of Physiology, thank heavens. When you lack the natural inclination, you compensate with effort. That's something I've been shaped to learn. Then again, I'm even starting to slack in Chemistry. Maybe I'm just giving myself a hard time with the double standards I set for my own work, especially when it came to that subject. To have completely missed out on such a simple solution to a question of such a level is something I won't let myself forget so soon.
It's not much when you can't solve 2 questions, but when those are the only questions that matter, that's big trouble.
Sorry for that personal rant. Perhaps we'd like to move on to a lighter note? :)
I'm slowly getting comfortable with where I am now, in my course, or just life in general. Sure I may not be the best of persons, but I do try. :) Everyone has their own kinks in life. I'm looking forward to the coming few years in this course of mine.
I hope to hold some gatherings soon, it's been way too long since I've seen them. I won't deny that I'm a control freak when it comes to these things. Never one to settle for unexpected changed, lest they be for the better. After all, my table was square. :)
Distance shall be closed,
The strings joining our hearts shorten,
Bringing us back together,
It takes not a mere physical connection,
For our souls are in tune,
Led astray by the passage of time,
Faith shall reconcile lost hearts.
Should doubt ever cloud your mind,
Never forget the trust you've bestowed,
And look within yourself,
To find the answer,
For no expanse can truly divide us.
Dudes and dudetts, we owe it to each other to hold that one final outing we never had. No complaining, no last minute cancellations, no outsiders, like how things should be. :3
For our time isn't as long as we'd expect.
We really shouldn't have had that last minute cancellation that other time. Why drag in such a big crowd? Shouldn't each other suffice? :)
WHOOPS. Slipped into that tone again. Well, spontaneous inspiration ftw.
Final note, stumbled across a pretty interesting quotation earlier,
Love makes time pass, and time makes love pass.
That's bout it, Kinoc, out. :)
Friday, May 6, 2011
Doodle #77 : Catch Up Week
First and foremost, sorry for the delay in updates. I confess I was rather preoccupied with trying to pen down a poem with a more.. melancholic tone. Somewhat. Frankly, I haven't the slightest clue on how one can write down ideas with such a beautiful flow. I guess I'll stick to my rather crude and rudimentary writing style.
Poetic attempts aside, I'll make it up to you by catching up on the past week. Wow, it's been a week already.
Tuesday
Ended class early, Amanda mentioned something bout a movie after class. Got me psyched to gather people and go out. Then again, being a last minute thing, didn't really work. Somehow, somewhere after all the discussions, and persuasions, we managed to get Joshiee and Dave to go out for lunch. Sometime later, we found ourselves in Empire, and at this place.
Chilies!
Playing some coordination game.
Epic expressions ftw.
Joshiee trying to act cute. D:
That lunch pretty much took out my budget for the rest of the week.
Wednesday
It's lab day again! Prepped up and set off for the day's practical. Things were rather hectic at the start as a few people have apparently shifted from their seatings from the previous session which didn't sit quite well with our lecturer. Coupled with the fact that the experiment required groups of 4-5 to perform, it took a while before things settled down and we finally kicked it off.
My groupmates for the day?
Adeline, Dave, Joshua!
I felt so smothered at the end of it. No joke. I'm pretty sure I inhaled some noxious fumes from the halogenation reactions. IT STINKS. Especially after all the test tubes were compiled and put into our test tube rack. Rows and rows of chemical fumes pouring out into my breathing space. Urgh.
Thursday
Nothing much to comment on this day, except the impromptu fire drill we had.
When the alarms started blaring, we thought it was a malfunction, or a prank and remained in class. I swear, we got the oddest looks from the passerbys. They must've been thinking
"Why these idiots still in class? We've a fire!"
Like whutt?
First time I've seen so many Monash students gathered at one spot. Not even on the busiest days do you see this many people in the cafeteria.
*blown away*
Friday
Which brings us to today, and the end of the week.
Lectures as usual today, but being Group 2, I had 4 straight hours. Not that I'd complain. Besides the hunger, it was more than bearable.
Lunch today with 9 other pharmacists to be. Most people I've seen go to lunch together since camp. And most people I've had lunch with to date in my university life.
Pasta Zanmai with Joshua, Jamie Melody, Jason, Zhi Shan, Ivan, Samuel, Weng Kong, and Voon.
So much for spending under RM15 for lunch today. Hahha.
Photographer of the day.
That concludes my short 1 week catch up post.
Kinoc, out. :)
Poetic attempts aside, I'll make it up to you by catching up on the past week. Wow, it's been a week already.
Tuesday
Ended class early, Amanda mentioned something bout a movie after class. Got me psyched to gather people and go out. Then again, being a last minute thing, didn't really work. Somehow, somewhere after all the discussions, and persuasions, we managed to get Joshiee and Dave to go out for lunch. Sometime later, we found ourselves in Empire, and at this place.
Chilies!
Playing some coordination game.
Epic expressions ftw.
Joshiee trying to act cute. D:
That lunch pretty much took out my budget for the rest of the week.
Wednesday
It's lab day again! Prepped up and set off for the day's practical. Things were rather hectic at the start as a few people have apparently shifted from their seatings from the previous session which didn't sit quite well with our lecturer. Coupled with the fact that the experiment required groups of 4-5 to perform, it took a while before things settled down and we finally kicked it off.
My groupmates for the day?
Adeline, Dave, Joshua!
I felt so smothered at the end of it. No joke. I'm pretty sure I inhaled some noxious fumes from the halogenation reactions. IT STINKS. Especially after all the test tubes were compiled and put into our test tube rack. Rows and rows of chemical fumes pouring out into my breathing space. Urgh.
Thursday
Nothing much to comment on this day, except the impromptu fire drill we had.
When the alarms started blaring, we thought it was a malfunction, or a prank and remained in class. I swear, we got the oddest looks from the passerbys. They must've been thinking
"Why these idiots still in class? We've a fire!"
Like whutt?
First time I've seen so many Monash students gathered at one spot. Not even on the busiest days do you see this many people in the cafeteria.
*blown away*
Friday
Which brings us to today, and the end of the week.
Lectures as usual today, but being Group 2, I had 4 straight hours. Not that I'd complain. Besides the hunger, it was more than bearable.
Lunch today with 9 other pharmacists to be. Most people I've seen go to lunch together since camp. And most people I've had lunch with to date in my university life.
Pasta Zanmai with Joshua, Jamie Melody, Jason, Zhi Shan, Ivan, Samuel, Weng Kong, and Voon.
So much for spending under RM15 for lunch today. Hahha.
Photographer of the day.
That concludes my short 1 week catch up post.
Kinoc, out. :)
Thursday, May 5, 2011
Doodle #76
Swept up,
By the winds of change,
A faraway land lies in the horizon,
Distant and unknown,
Yet familiar to oneself.
The hands of time slow to a crawl,
For haven lied within proximity,
A picturesque deliberation,
Of elation.
A mark left behind,
Recollection of his endeavours,
Exuberance reflected in a smile.
A land of trials,
Seperates the earth from footfall,
A trail of prints left behind in the sand,
To answer a call,
For destiny.
Trust me I've no idea what was I writing. (: HAHA.
By the winds of change,
A faraway land lies in the horizon,
Distant and unknown,
Yet familiar to oneself.
The hands of time slow to a crawl,
For haven lied within proximity,
A picturesque deliberation,
Of elation.
A mark left behind,
Recollection of his endeavours,
Exuberance reflected in a smile.
A land of trials,
Seperates the earth from footfall,
A trail of prints left behind in the sand,
To answer a call,
For destiny.
Trust me I've no idea what was I writing. (: HAHA.
Tuesday, May 3, 2011
Doodle #75
Take the money and watch it burn, as it all goes up in flames.
Another day, another onset of fatigue.
I need a nap, I need exercise.
BLAHHHHHH.
Hi Dave, I know you're reading this. :D
Another day, another onset of fatigue.
I need a nap, I need exercise.
BLAHHHHHH.
Hi Dave, I know you're reading this. :D
Monday, May 2, 2011
Doodle #74
So this is it, I bid my mid semester break adieu. The first of many breaks to come.
Hence, this post will be nothing more than a quick recap of my past week.
Holidays? Not my cup of tea. I had always preferred being the company of my friends than sitting alone at home. Well, most times. There is still a particular stigma.
So throughout this holiday, I have:
-> Ice skated
-> Stoned at home
-> Attempted (and failed) revising my subjects
-> More stoning
-> Celebrated the birthdays of 2 very special friends
-> Celebrated the birthday of my niece (my metaphorical niece)
-> Stoned even more
-> Watched HP7, Part 1 (Yes, I am massively slow with my movies. What to do? When it came out nobody ajak me watch *cue sad face*)
Right now?
Well, I'm stoning again, agonizingly willing the last few hours to pass before I step back into university.
To see them again. I miss you guys already. Rowdy bunch. :P
I think I know why I've been so bored lately, I haven't found RPGs to play. Or rather, the inner RPG player within me is asking me to find one to play. After FlyFF I just want to take a break.
Speaking of which I think I'll try to list down every MMORPG I've played in my life:
-> Runescape (I'd say the pioneer of my MMORPG life. Miss this game and the rivalry I once had, and all the stories of hilarious deaths from my partner at the wilderness)
-> Ragnarok (Private server of course. Pretty much addicted to this till I lost everything. Backslide backslide MA MA MA. Soul change + HP coversion)
-> Cabal (Think I almost actually paid for stuff in this game. I was this close. Transcender ftw, in your face wk)
-> Shaiya (Fleeting addiction after I was introduced to this. Lasted a few months before I gave up due to boredom. Had a lv45 character in Hard mode if I recall right)
-> Dekaron (No idea why I played this. Nobody else did, save wk, again)
-> FlyFF (Latest MMORPG I played. Intro by non other than Amanda herself. Who didn't really show up after getting me hooked on)
Not too shabby.
Kinoc, out.
Hence, this post will be nothing more than a quick recap of my past week.
Holidays? Not my cup of tea. I had always preferred being the company of my friends than sitting alone at home. Well, most times. There is still a particular stigma.
So throughout this holiday, I have:
-> Ice skated
-> Stoned at home
-> Attempted (and failed) revising my subjects
-> More stoning
-> Celebrated the birthdays of 2 very special friends
-> Celebrated the birthday of my niece (my metaphorical niece)
-> Stoned even more
-> Watched HP7, Part 1 (Yes, I am massively slow with my movies. What to do? When it came out nobody ajak me watch *cue sad face*)
Right now?
Well, I'm stoning again, agonizingly willing the last few hours to pass before I step back into university.
To see them again. I miss you guys already. Rowdy bunch. :P
I think I know why I've been so bored lately, I haven't found RPGs to play. Or rather, the inner RPG player within me is asking me to find one to play. After FlyFF I just want to take a break.
Speaking of which I think I'll try to list down every MMORPG I've played in my life:
-> Runescape (I'd say the pioneer of my MMORPG life. Miss this game and the rivalry I once had, and all the stories of hilarious deaths from my partner at the wilderness)
-> Ragnarok (Private server of course. Pretty much addicted to this till I lost everything. Backslide backslide MA MA MA. Soul change + HP coversion)
-> Cabal (Think I almost actually paid for stuff in this game. I was this close. Transcender ftw, in your face wk)
-> Shaiya (Fleeting addiction after I was introduced to this. Lasted a few months before I gave up due to boredom. Had a lv45 character in Hard mode if I recall right)
-> Dekaron (No idea why I played this. Nobody else did, save wk, again)
-> FlyFF (Latest MMORPG I played. Intro by non other than Amanda herself. Who didn't really show up after getting me hooked on)
Not too shabby.
Kinoc, out.
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