Light at the end of the tunnel

Seems everything's starting to clear up, hopefully for the better. Guess I'll have to thank a person for being there where I couldn't. Can't complain now can I? It's better then having nothing to stop the freefall. Sigh.. It's starting to hurt again, and I'm starting to want to try all over again. But I know better than to do that, once was way more then enough. Maybe it was twice. I never ever want to end up the way I was the past 7 months, and I don't give a dam about anything other than avoiding anything that might break me again. Call me selfish, call me cold, I don't care. But I can't deny somewhere deep down, I'm still affected by.....