Darkness turns to light

Yeah, monthly test over! Not that I really bothered to begin with. Was practically playing DotA and Shaiya throughout the whole week. And now I'm doing so again. Lol.
Hopefully I did well enough seeing everything was last min study. (what? everyone studies last minute.. right?)
For some reason after I was done with one of the papers on Wednesday, I kept slamming my head against the wall behind me. Don't look at me, I have no idea why I did so to begin with. Note to self - Stop slamming head on walls, it leaves lumps, which hurts, which r much bads.

Needs.. Gaming.. Occupy Mind.. Dammit stuck at same lvl in shaiya noobcake.
Random quote (again) - Jon : Metal emo sentimental faggot (I think that's what he said :D)

Exams

As the title goes, it's the monthly test! (okay so it isn't exactly some huge exam but still..) Ah well, didn't study enough =X spent the past 4 days I had at home... doing what I do best.. Gaming :D
lmao yeah I know and it's taking a huge toll on my studies =X.
Strange.. In a joyful mood again (what's gotten into meh?! D:)

Anyways, I shall attempt to "study" now. For Maths and Chem (sap sap shui lar) while listening to my new playlist of every screamo song I could find in my comp :D

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Well, there goes another crappy day..Wonder how long this is gonna last.. The 1st monthly test of the year starts tomorrow and yet I’m barely prepared. Well I haven’t exactly been in peak studying conditions to begin with anyway.. Haiz

Yesterday was horrible, had a bad day, felt worse at night when smth popped up. I don’t know why everytime that happens I just go into a spiraling depression. This r badz omen. Yeah I know I’ve been told there’s nothing to worry about but I just can’t get it past myself when it was my fault to begin with. It plain sucks to feel as though there’s some weight being pressed against the inside of your chest, otherwise known as your heart.

I take what I said earlier back, listening to happy songs didn’t help one bit. ._.
Ok maybe it does, but that presence just overwrites everything.

And then of course, things will go from bad to worse. Blablablabla
Dad came out and asked me whether I was still playing or not seeing it was already 11+ pm which was really late by his standards.. And I specifically remembered my reply.
I know I friggin’ said “No, I’m am just chatting with my friend now”

AND WTF DOES HE DO?! HE TURNS THE FUCKIN’ MODEM OFF!
LIKE WHAT DAR FOCK?! My fucked up comp will hang every single time the internet is disconnected for reasons beyond my comprehension. Argh, fucked up day -_-ll

And of course the usual drill, takes me up to over a damn hour just to fall asleep as my thoughts rush to my head, as much as I try not to let that happen.
“Go to school with a smile on your face. Don’t emo kay..”
Yeah, w/e. Just let it all cloud my mind, nothing stops it from doing so anyway.

Studying now, doesn’t seem to be working, I’m so friggin' screwed for my test.
And my hair just got mutilated by the local barber, just what I needed to complete my perfect day.

Here We Go Again

It's been exactly 4 weeks since I chose to go along with the damned plan. Why did I do so? I can't remember. It's been hell since then anyways. This time I know it's different cause the previous time I had screwed up, I bounced back reasonably fast. I guess I finally understand why after some thought. I'm sure you've forgotten by now how it went last year. Then again I never expected you to remember. Blah. Rush of thoughts to head again, this r epic badz. Not good. =/

It was that 1st week after.. that.. Yeah it definitely had to be that. Cause normally it'll just take a day or two max for that screwed up feeling to wear off. You just had to sever all ties didn't you. Guess that was what brought me so far down this time.

Blah just ranting to myself while brooding. WK STOP FRIGGIN' POINTING OUT THE OBVIOUS CAUSE I CAN OBVIOUSLY SEE. Funny how the kinds of songs you listen to can really affect your mood, or aggravate it.

Note to self - stop listening to depressing songs.

Bored

Gawd the past few weeks have been passing by like... forever. Maybe that doesn't make sense. Lol. Time seems to be moving so slow now.. The days feel as though they take forever to pass by. Sometimes I just hate it when people point out stuff I do not want to be reminded of. Especially some faggot by the name of "Wei Khang". God it's just so friggin' annoying at times since I already know what he's going to say ==.
Blah, just ranting to myself..

The 7 Sins

Greed, Gluttony, Sloth, Pride, Wrath, Lust, Envy. The 7 sins blablablabla.
Well while looking through random blogs.. I found this quiz on my cousin's one =D
So I thought I'd do it just for fun.

Greed:	Medium
Gluttony:	Medium
Wrath:	High
Sloth:	Very High
Envy:	High
Lust:	Very Low
Pride:	Medium

Discover Your Sins - Click Here
-The results

Yeah I've always been a sloth, very well aware of that. But "very low" for lust?? C'mon! Then again I never really bothered anymore :D

Lagging

Sorry for the lack of updates. YES, I am very well aware it's been a LONG time since my last post but the past few weeks have been nothing short of shitty. And there's virtually nothing nice to write about =(
So back to livin' my sucky life nao D:
Just wait till smth which has nothing to do with anything depressing happens then maybe I'll write smth :D