Doodle #92

Before I start today's post..

IT'S HERE IT'S HERE IT'S HERE! LIKE FINALLY. PosLaju ah PosLaju.

Back to today's post,

Went over to uni today for an attempted group study session with Joshua and Jhii. I wouldn't say that it was a complete success but I managed to get my gears turning. Finished an OC pyp in my head as well as cleared up several issues regarding the unit. That's enough for me to consider it a partial success.

Ended up camwhoring and eating BR for the most part of the afternoon. Ahhh.

Tomorrow marks the beginning of 1111. :)

Doodle #91

I'd say that today is one of those days where I'm just generally pissed at everything.

I've been waiting for almost 5 days for my parcel to arrive. It was scheduled to have arrived today, but was written off as "Addressee not home". I understand if there's delays and whatnot as the parcel is being delivered from Penang, but please. Please don't write me off as "not at home" when I've been waiting at home since 11am, till now (which is currently 7pm). I stayed home, I stayed downstairs, and I just waited. I may have fallen asleep around 6pm but the door was open, the tv was on, and it was clearly visible that there were people at home. So do not write whatever reason that pleases you. I am disappointed.

Been notified that it'll be arriving tomorrow. Hopefully they're actually going to follow through this time. But wtf la, I'm going out to uni tomorrow. Perfect shit ass timing.

Yes, I am visibly pissed. And this is called fast and efficient?

Doodle #90

Even though I've almost no recollections of it left,

I kinda want to relive my high school life.

Just to see how things would turn out had I made different choices.

Doodle #89 : Push On

Today marks the end of my first semester. Just like that, 3 months flashed by. Over 160 hours of lectures, countless more of lab sessions and tutorials, gone with the wind. From here on end, it's just a week, and my notes, that stands between me and my finals.

Sat for 2 practical lab examinations today. Sad to say I didn't perform up to standard for either, only raking in a total of three quarters of the total marks. Why? For starters, the first was an open-book examination. Put simply, I had my book beside me the whole while. Second, the latter examination can be considered one of my forte, yet I couldn't fully capitalize on it.

Sorry if I acted a bit off today. I'll be good as new soon! So many things to plan, so little time. If there's anything that'll cheer me up, it's that it'll be here sometime in the weekend. (:

What? Well..

Himitsu desu. (:

Happy Birthday Dad

I'd like to take this chance to wish,

Happy Birthday!

To my dad. (:

Creeping Fear

Doubt arises amidst conviction,
Fear trickles down,
As it slithers into your soul.

It takes but a shred of hesitation,
To erode the strongest of faiths.


I don't think I managed to get the first of 4 labels right. If I did make the mistake I did, it would have cost me 2.5/10 marks, an entire 25% of the exam.

It pains me to think so.

Just like that, my will to study, collapsed.

Doodle #88

Soothing winds sweep through the dawn,
Eyes fixated on the horizon,
The sun rising in the distance,
Illuminates the world.

Beneath the luminosity,
Patches of melancholy resides,
Portrayed by veiled wounds,
Articulated by words unspoken,
Marked by a silhouette.

A scar,
Bearing loathe,
A clandestine symbol,
Is but a sorrowful reminder,
That it still walks this land.


Every time I plan to study, I always end up procrastinating. Perhaps that's the reason I'm starting to fall behind. Well, it's time to get back to my tutorial. I've to garner proper inspiration. Latest writings seem to be all over the place.

Ah well. :)

Doodle #87 : Catch Up Post

I doubt I'd be able to get a good night's sleep without first visiting this page of mine. Call it compulsion, obsession, or whatever floats your boat, but then again it is this very compulsion of mine that keeps this page alive. I wouldn't call it a buzz but hey, least it's being updated.

Time for yet another catch up post on the week.

I wouldn't say the week kicked off on the best of notes. With the start of the week, came the much dreaded Oral Presentation, the first of many (I hope not) in my course. Much to my dismay, I hadn't exactly performed up to the standards I have set. Then again, there's not much I can do about what's passed but to press on for the week.

Tuesday brought with it the joy of a much needed public holiday, and a chance to see Lee DeWyze LIVE! More on that here, of course you can just scroll down.

Wednesday passed without much thought.

Thursday was probably one of the most draining practical sessions I've had, no kidding. Check out Facebook for the day's video. We were to conduct various torturous fun activities in order to measure our cardiac arrest heart rate and oxygen consumption.

Among the day's notable torment was :


The Beep Test. Participants were to run from Point A to Point B within a beep. It's one of those tests to gauche your fitness levels, pretty accurate too. My results? Seems I'm in dire need of exercise. -.-

The Rockport Walk Test


Otherwise known as "The Shopping Stroll". You were to walk maximum your own pace for 1km.


The Bicep Curl?


The Cycle Test. Pedal to the metal! Cycle like there's no tomorrow!


Misc. Activities : Dancing LOL

I'd say one of the most practical sessions I've had. Haha.

Then comes Friday, gonna get down on Friday!

Group 2 members had to start their day extra early at 8am today.

Despite our lack of sleep, everyone gathered at the Computer Lab, ready to kick off the day with a Dispensing Tutorial, our final one for this semester. Feels like everything's flying by way too fast. I'm starting to lose myself in the midst of Patient Notes, Ancillary Labels and Precautions. Hah.

Then, practicals again.

Today?


We got to play with these. Instantly thought of my college mates. I miss teabagging them. LOL


Seperation of aqueous and organic layers. It rings true when yokeyee said only Science students would be fascinated by such an experiment. I guess we didn't choose the wrong course. :D

Oh, and..


Drawn by Vinci. Real nice picture. :D Just try to guess who's who. :)

That concludes yet another week. Next week marks the final week of my first semester as a Pharmacist to be. Hahhh. I can't wait for the breaks. I'll finally be able to see the faces I miss so much again. (L)

Six hours,
To tell a tale,
Six hours,
To speak words unspoken,
Six hours,
To pass on a wish,
Six hours,
360 minutes,
21600 seconds,
Embodies a departed visage,
Pivotal moments for some,
Yet mere time to others,
If you had six hours,
What would you do?

I wouldn't call it inspiration, just a need to express the repressed. Experiences remain an anecdote to be shared. :)

Kinoc, out.

Doodle #86

Over time, this is starting to feel more like space depicting my endless ranting. A place for me to go to and write utter nonsense just because I can. Haha.

Preparing for Physio lab sessions now. I shudder at the thought of exercise, rofl.

So yeah, an insubstantial morning post.

:)

Doodle #85

Yet another post to end the night.

Have I ever mentioned that Physiology was never my cup of tea? Having said that, it's not like I've a choice on which units I can opt to take and hence, I should must give every single unit my all.

Which would probably be the best case scenario.

Of course, upholding my reputation as a procrastinator, I have put off such ideals. Time and time again, I slack off against my better judgement and I'm finally beginning to reap what I sow. The products of a complacent attitude. Peppered with careless errors, I can only hope to retain a decent percentage in my Physio MCQ test earlier today. Needless to say, the best course of action now would be to maintain an optimistic outlook on my studies and push on from this setback. As this only carries a rather small percentage (when you look at the overall picture), it's safe to say that I can still compensate for my numerous shortcomings throughout this semester.

It really is easier to maintain that optimistic outlook now.

To stray to an issue of a much smaller significant magnitude, it would be the third time that image has fluttered through my mind. I took this opportunity to revisit a place deep within the crevice of thoughts locked away with time. A vivid reminder of a person I was far from proud to be. I had raised my tone against those who sincerely cared, and played into the hands of those that did not. True, there's only two I wouldn't snap at.

Reflecting on oneself really brings out one's flaws. One I'm keen to erase. For there is more to life than being held in place pondering.

I must say, I was taken aback by the nonchalant manner my correspondent replied my mail. The embodiment of logical and no-nonsense speech, I am still far from her level. An amusing read, nonetheless.

Today's random thought? I smiled, from the inside. :)

Oh, I really do write in the most nonsensical manners. Hhahahaha. Wow. No wonder nothing ever sounds the way it's meant to feel when put into black and white. Rofl.

Lee DeWyze

Hello again.

Yes, the title says it all. Attended the free concert by AI Season 9 winner Lee DeWyze at Subang Parade. Coincidentally, it was a public holiday today. That's an offer you can't expect me to pass up. I needed to get out of the house anyway. I'm still slightly rattled from the latest mishap, and really needed to destress. So concert time, with Jon!

It was scheduled to begin at 4, so we left at 3. Since neither of us were actual Lee DeWyze fans, we didn't really know any of his songs. I only knew 1, and Jon knew 2. With the aid of personal audio selections, we listened to his album throughout the way there. I might add that it didn't really help. Haha.

As with all free concerts, it drew a relatively huge crowd. And of course, Jon and I (or rather he, as he was the driver) struggled to locate a parking spot. Nevertheless, we got lucky after almost 10 minutes. Whee.


Lights. That's the stage. Quite small, then again, it's Subang Parade, there's not much space to begin with.


All the levels (paths or stairs) filled with fans, and also many onlookers.


First, we headed up to the first floor at an attempt to secure a clear vantage point of the performance below. After less than 5 minutes, the heat and lack of ventilation at our camp site deterred us from staying there. Hence, we relocated ourselves to a more comfortable location.

Once again, I'm very sorry, to the lady who I opened the stairway door against.
Goes to show you shouldn't lean against the door, no matter where you are. People might just open them.


Better air, air conditioned and view still was quite nice.


LEE DEWYZE! He came on about 10 minutes past 4, which was relatively fast for Malaysian timing.

*begins listing down all his songs* (Please attempt this process on your own)

With the exception of Beautiful Like You (for Jon) and Sweet Serendipity, I didn't know any other of his songs. I admit, I'm not really a fan. But I really like the 1 song I knew. Which he played as the final song.

All in all, it lasted 40 minutes.

Hands down, shortest concert I've attended.

Then all those who purchased his CD got a Meet&Greet autograph session. Aww man, I should've bought a CD. :(

Nom nom on RotiBoy, first time I've eaten their bun in almost 2 years. *more sad faces* And note, their ice blended coffee is rather nice. Yum.

Which concludes the day, and my post.


On a side note.... Dot dot dot.

Should I start blogging in a more colloquial manner? Or should I refrain myself from doing so and retain my original serious and no-nonsense (Instantly thought of a friend as I mention those traits) attitude at writing? Hehhh.

Speaking of which, I should reply her e-mail before she feels all abandoned again.

Doodle #84

A string of images brings about consideration on reconciliation.

Derailed

A muddle of thoughts,
Seep into an intangible web,
Spoken words strung together,
Meaning lost through a frenzy.

A price to pay,
Committing faults of a greenhorn,
Caught in a plight of a rookie,
An inexcusable mistake.

Acknowledging my errors,
It was wrong to be conceited,
For what I once was does not determine who I am,
Sunken beneath the borderline levels,
I was but a shadow of myself,
From a classroom atop the roof,
A mere bundle of nerves.




It was wrong of me to expect myself performing at my best. I should never have let myself fall into that mindset. This is a far cry from what I can do. Nerves, the worst enemy.

One hurdle stumbled over, another one imminent.

Back to the books, for there is no rest for the wicked.

Speed Train

Tomorrow, everything will be settled.

Either I present with my usual swagger.

Or everything goes downhill and I turn into a speedtrain.

Both have happened before, but only a handful have seen me speedtrain. So yeah.

Doodle #83

Once again, I enter the realm of procrastination. (:

Despite the variety of troubles plaguing my mind-oral presentation, mcq test- I'm still trying to finish up writing. I've completed the body, but I've no clue how to conclude the piece.

I'm gonna need help to wrap this up. Maybe I'm not looking deep enough into myself to garner that inspiration.

I reread a post. With the benefit of hindsight, I'm finally able to realize how naive I was. Tugged along, being led forward by a driving force far from my own. It was that very naivety that made the post so much harder to read. This is going to sound rather odd but.. I was touched, to have read what was written, though by my own hands. Words unspoken yet understood, an earnest intention.

A conversation with my distant self, left behind with the passing of time.

"I cringe at the thought of the year ending"

To be here now, I am very well aware. That year has ended.

In spite of it all, maybe I'm glad. Pardon my conceited tone but I realize the good I'm capable of doing. To be someone genuine. A sentiment that even I am unable to explain with mere words. Yet, a sentiment misplaced.

Perhaps it's time to shed this outlook and appreciate the experience. After all, not everyone is lucky enough to get a chance to learn such a valuable life lesson.

Bak kata pepatah, "dada manusia tidak dapat diselam"

Cause yeah, I can be a nice guy. LOL.

Dedication

Well, it's much better than I could do.

Can you hear their laughter too?

I will not harm you the same way.

Doodle #82

I would say that today wasn't exactly the best of days, for several reasons.

I finally logged back onto Blogger but my previous edited post went missing. Luckily, the rough draft for it was salvaged and I (hope) managed to write it in an even better manner. Who knew that changing a single word changes the entire nature of the sentence.

Later on in the day, I found out that I've lost misplaced my States of Matter notes. With it, my workings for the set examples vanished. I admit, I was pretty upset then, especially since I had just opened my Self-Assessment Test. So I pressed on with it, aided by online notes. Scored below 70% for it.

Once again, my nonchalant attitude towards my studies has been proved. I should stop squandering what little time I have left and truly begin my studying regime. I know what I can do if I study, the only problem is getting myself started.

Well, a friend of mine got into a rather problematic situation today. I shall not elaborate but it was thankfully, all ended well. Felt an overwhelming sense of relief after that.

On an unrelated note, here I am again. Writing down my innocuous thoughts down into black and white.

What you're about to read probably proves just how stressed I am about the coming few weeks.

Aku kian resah akan minggu ini. Adakah persediaanku cukup rapi dan mematuhi segala peraturan yang telah ditetapkan? Boleh dikatakan bahawa senario terburuk amat merimaskan. Aku pernah melalui pelbagai cabaran yang lebih sukar daripada ini. Walaobagaimanapun, aku mempunyai segala informasi dan persediaan yang cukup rapi untuk melepasi dugaan ujian tersebut.

Oh screw it, I was never good at BM. I shall revert to my language of choice, English.

I tried. :))

For now, I've to figure out how to personalize that post even further. ;D

Doodle #80

So I was inspired to write another piece.

To date, I've only written two such pieces, and the former was written almost 3 months ago. I'd see it as a conclusion.

Today's piece had no such tone. :)

Circling speeches aside, felt good today.

Met Itianne and Mun who dropped by Monash. Even Sunway-ians know how awesome our library bean bags are. :D

WHEEEEE. Let the hyperness set in!

Back to work though, calling it early tonight. Not in any mood to start work. PROCRASTINATION. :)

Kinoc, out.

Doodle #79

I couldn't help but sign in prior to calling it a day.

Guilty of taking the day off to slack today. I must say, the nagging thought at the back of my head will not let me live it down.

Current worries?

For starters, I've an ABE-F Written Test tomorrow. Heard it's only 11 questions but we've been designated a full hour to tackle it. It been on my nerves lately, or just today.

Then, there's the ever worrisome oral presentation. Having been told that content carries no points whatsoever, I set out to slash my points. I admit, it felt rather painful to mangle my hard work but alas, things had to be done. Couldn't present much within the 10 minute time constraint and I'm very sure my current slides overshoot the time limit. All that remains is to sort out my slides and practice over the weekend.

It seems I've gotten rid of speedtrain Kin Hoe. In his place, stutter and mumble Kin Hoe popped up. Urghh.. Maybe it's the lack of practice. I'm hoping to be able to bring out the speaker side of myself again. If only I was as motivated as I was for my Oral Examinations for last year. I had to speak to an Australian Examiner through a web program. Luckily it was purely audio, my excessive hand motions and descriptive motions may have made me look rather cumbersome on screen. Nevertheless, I was rather satisfied with the feedback then. I think I even spoke to a classmate I've never spoken to in months just because my tone had disrupted her exams. It's a little late now but sorryyyyyyy. Hahahah. :)

So yeah, no speedtrain, no stutter. BULLSHIT WITH CONFIDENCE. As we'll be graded based on our demeanor and speaking skills. I guess.

Lastly, Physio's still been on my mind. Finally kicked it into gear. Blood Brain Barrier.

Kinoc, out. :)

Doodle #78 : Weather

I want some more, what are you waiting for? Take a bite of my heart tonight.

Indeed, it's been a blazing and rather scorching week. For the first time, I'm rejecting the sunshine in my life. It just goes to show that too much of a good thing is bad for you.

Not trying to sound fussy but I can't say I really enjoy this weather, I'd prefer a more temperate one. You know, calm winds, cloudy sky, dawn or dusk kind of weather. Those are truly relaxing moments.

And to think less than 2 weeks ago, we were experiencing continuous heavy rainfall each day. I still remember sitting along the corridor at 7:30AM being blasted by cold winds. Personally, there's no better way to start the morning than a much needed morning breeze. :)

On an unrelated and somewhat more serious note..

I think I'm getting the hang of Physiology, thank heavens. When you lack the natural inclination, you compensate with effort. That's something I've been shaped to learn. Then again, I'm even starting to slack in Chemistry. Maybe I'm just giving myself a hard time with the double standards I set for my own work, especially when it came to that subject. To have completely missed out on such a simple solution to a question of such a level is something I won't let myself forget so soon.

It's not much when you can't solve 2 questions, but when those are the only questions that matter, that's big trouble.

Sorry for that personal rant. Perhaps we'd like to move on to a lighter note? :)

I'm slowly getting comfortable with where I am now, in my course, or just life in general. Sure I may not be the best of persons, but I do try. :) Everyone has their own kinks in life. I'm looking forward to the coming few years in this course of mine.

I hope to hold some gatherings soon, it's been way too long since I've seen them. I won't deny that I'm a control freak when it comes to these things. Never one to settle for unexpected changed, lest they be for the better. After all, my table was square. :)

Distance shall be closed,
The strings joining our hearts shorten,
Bringing us back together,
It takes not a mere physical connection,
For our souls are in tune,
Led astray by the passage of time,
Faith shall reconcile lost hearts.

Should doubt ever cloud your mind,
Never forget the trust you've bestowed,
And look within yourself,
To find the answer,
For no expanse can truly divide us.

Dudes and dudetts, we owe it to each other to hold that one final outing we never had. No complaining, no last minute cancellations, no outsiders, like how things should be. :3

For our time isn't as long as we'd expect.

We really shouldn't have had that last minute cancellation that other time. Why drag in such a big crowd? Shouldn't each other suffice? :)


WHOOPS. Slipped into that tone again. Well, spontaneous inspiration ftw.

Final note, stumbled across a pretty interesting quotation earlier,

Love makes time pass, and time makes love pass.

That's bout it, Kinoc, out. :)

Doodle #77 : Catch Up Week

First and foremost, sorry for the delay in updates. I confess I was rather preoccupied with trying to pen down a poem with a more.. melancholic tone. Somewhat. Frankly, I haven't the slightest clue on how one can write down ideas with such a beautiful flow. I guess I'll stick to my rather crude and rudimentary writing style.

Poetic attempts aside, I'll make it up to you by catching up on the past week. Wow, it's been a week already.

Tuesday

Ended class early, Amanda mentioned something bout a movie after class. Got me psyched to gather people and go out. Then again, being a last minute thing, didn't really work. Somehow, somewhere after all the discussions, and persuasions, we managed to get Joshiee and Dave to go out for lunch. Sometime later, we found ourselves in Empire, and at this place.


Chilies!


Playing some coordination game.


Epic expressions ftw.


Joshiee trying to act cute. D:

That lunch pretty much took out my budget for the rest of the week.


Wednesday

It's lab day again! Prepped up and set off for the day's practical. Things were rather hectic at the start as a few people have apparently shifted from their seatings from the previous session which didn't sit quite well with our lecturer. Coupled with the fact that the experiment required groups of 4-5 to perform, it took a while before things settled down and we finally kicked it off.

My groupmates for the day?

Adeline, Dave, Joshua!



I felt so smothered at the end of it. No joke. I'm pretty sure I inhaled some noxious fumes from the halogenation reactions. IT STINKS. Especially after all the test tubes were compiled and put into our test tube rack. Rows and rows of chemical fumes pouring out into my breathing space. Urgh.


Thursday

Nothing much to comment on this day, except the impromptu fire drill we had.

When the alarms started blaring, we thought it was a malfunction, or a prank and remained in class. I swear, we got the oddest looks from the passerbys. They must've been thinking

"Why these idiots still in class? We've a fire!"

Like whutt?



First time I've seen so many Monash students gathered at one spot. Not even on the busiest days do you see this many people in the cafeteria.

*blown away*


Friday

Which brings us to today, and the end of the week.

Lectures as usual today, but being Group 2, I had 4 straight hours. Not that I'd complain. Besides the hunger, it was more than bearable.

Lunch today with 9 other pharmacists to be. Most people I've seen go to lunch together since camp. And most people I've had lunch with to date in my university life.

Pasta Zanmai with Joshua, Jamie Melody, Jason, Zhi Shan, Ivan, Samuel, Weng Kong, and Voon.

So much for spending under RM15 for lunch today. Hahha.


Photographer of the day.




That concludes my short 1 week catch up post.

Kinoc, out. :)

Doodle #76

Swept up,
By the winds of change,
A faraway land lies in the horizon,
Distant and unknown,
Yet familiar to oneself.

The hands of time slow to a crawl,
For haven lied within proximity,
A picturesque deliberation,
Of elation.

A mark left behind,
Recollection of his endeavours,
Exuberance reflected in a smile.

A land of trials,
Seperates the earth from footfall,
A trail of prints left behind in the sand,
To answer a call,
For destiny.


Trust me I've no idea what was I writing. (: HAHA.

Doodle #75

Take the money and watch it burn, as it all goes up in flames.

Another day, another onset of fatigue.

I need a nap, I need exercise.

BLAHHHHHH.

Hi Dave, I know you're reading this. :D

Doodle #74

So this is it, I bid my mid semester break adieu. The first of many breaks to come.

Hence, this post will be nothing more than a quick recap of my past week.

Holidays? Not my cup of tea. I had always preferred being the company of my friends than sitting alone at home. Well, most times. There is still a particular stigma.

So throughout this holiday, I have:
-> Ice skated
-> Stoned at home
-> Attempted (and failed) revising my subjects
-> More stoning
-> Celebrated the birthdays of 2 very special friends
-> Celebrated the birthday of my niece (my metaphorical niece)
-> Stoned even more
-> Watched HP7, Part 1 (Yes, I am massively slow with my movies. What to do? When it came out nobody ajak me watch *cue sad face*)

Right now?

Well, I'm stoning again, agonizingly willing the last few hours to pass before I step back into university.

To see them again. I miss you guys already. Rowdy bunch. :P

I think I know why I've been so bored lately, I haven't found RPGs to play. Or rather, the inner RPG player within me is asking me to find one to play. After FlyFF I just want to take a break.

Speaking of which I think I'll try to list down every MMORPG I've played in my life:
-> Runescape (I'd say the pioneer of my MMORPG life. Miss this game and the rivalry I once had, and all the stories of hilarious deaths from my partner at the wilderness)
-> Ragnarok (Private server of course. Pretty much addicted to this till I lost everything. Backslide backslide MA MA MA. Soul change + HP coversion)
-> Cabal (Think I almost actually paid for stuff in this game. I was this close. Transcender ftw, in your face wk)
-> Shaiya (Fleeting addiction after I was introduced to this. Lasted a few months before I gave up due to boredom. Had a lv45 character in Hard mode if I recall right)
-> Dekaron (No idea why I played this. Nobody else did, save wk, again)
-> FlyFF (Latest MMORPG I played. Intro by non other than Amanda herself. Who didn't really show up after getting me hooked on)

Not too shabby.

Kinoc, out.