It It Not Where We Belong

It's not the goodbye that hurts, but the flashback that follows..

You know.. It's not often that I'm this down. After all, this is the inevitable, I always knew that this was coming, I just didn't expect it to be so soon.

The first of many to come..

People always take things for granted, they believe that everything in life would just sit still and stay the way they are, nice and comfortable. Nobody ever prepares themselves for an unexpected chance in life, a shift without warning. I for one am guilty of having created such an illusion for myself. I was caught off guard. I couldn't believe it. No, the correct term would have been I refused to believe it. Everything was perfect, so routine, anything that had the prospect of changing that just seemed to unreal.

They say a picture's worth a thousand words..

If such a line is true, you're worth more than 20000 words to me. The person whose important never really hit home till now. The quirky one. You never notice, unless you knew that person personally, if not, that person wouldn't really stand out. I don't mean to offend, but that's my personal perception and honest opinion. Trust me, you're awesome the way you are.

I don't want to sound overly sentimental but after the initial shock, everything just came flooding back to me in one overwhelming wave. It felt as though I was drowning in the sea of memories that rushed me, never giving me a second to contemplate and reflect on how fast time had flew past us. Days spent studying, having fun, just being extremely stupid amongst friends, loved as much as family. They seem like such a distant memory now, it feels so surreal to reminiscent about those times.

I guess this just goes to show, life never ever goes the way you plan it. Always brace yourself for the unexpected. You can wait around for life, but life won't wait around for you.

I never got a chance to say goodbye.

I Reiterate

But compared to that, you're amazing..

I never thought I'd panic this much thinking that I had lost that. Frantically, I looked through my drawer only to find it pinned under everything else I had tossed on top of it nonchalantly.

I feel the tug again. The guilt.

Being harsh is hard on myself too. The amount of effort it takes to maintain composure. At times it came naturally, other times it felt as though I was pushing myself to be someone I'm not. I was going against my very personality.

I wonder at times too why do I go to such lengths to keep myself at a distance.

I guess the saying's true. You can never throw everything away. So I do the next viable option on my mind..

Bottle everything up, and hope it dies someday.

I've went too far back for my own good, my other half bears its fangs, waiting to pounce and take over my conscience again. This is what I get when I let down my guard and be nice.

I can remember almost everything now, down to the smallest details.

One by one, the days are returning to my mind despite any attempts to repulse them.

I don't wanna go back to that pathetic state I was once in, helpless and vulnerable. To be turned into a puppet again..

I don't.

Doodle #34

I've been alone all my life.

That's probably the only thing that's driving me on.

The very fact that I reside in solitude, it reminds of who I am and my almost purposeless direction in this life.

That is what propels to me to work hard, to be acknowledged.

Yet, nothing ever seems to work out, no matter how hard I try.

People only exist to pull you down.

Rarely, do you come across a person who shares your insights, one you could relate to.

Even then, you'd be surprised at how fast they can turn and leave you in the dust, laughing at you as you stumble while they cruise along in life.

Within loneliness, lies comfort.

Everybody needs somebody, yet everybody is out to hurt somebody.

Doodle #33

I opened up the door.

There it lay, an item I haven't laid my eyes on in a long time.

It brings me back to that day.

No, I've not forgotten. I don't think I ever will.

The laughter, the joy.

A fragment of my past, a reminder that it is the passed, a distant memory out of my reach.

One glance opened up a vault of thoughts, locked away in secrecy all this while.

Forsaken, tossed aside and destined to never be opened again.

This I'm certain, I no longer see the reason behind the joy, only the sorrow.

I look to the future with clouded eyes, assured that I can leave everything behind yet weary of the arduousness of the task that lay at hand.

Once again, I bid you goodbye.

Bygones Be Bygones

Another day passes by with its lack of change.

I can't say that today was the best of days nor can I call it a bad one. Why? Well, I'm kinda undecided about how to react to my EAL/D Oral Practical Examination earlier today.

Oh, how bad can it get?

Considering that this particular exam contributes 25% of my FINAL EAL/D evaluation.. it's a very important one indeed. It's no surprise that my nerves got the better of me.

I actually messed up my timing and went to college almost an hour that I had initially planned, but that wasn't so bad. Least it gave me some time for self-reflection and last minute run through of my points.

When the time came for me to get myself to the preparation room beside the Smile Lab, I took one last breath, and sighed out. Real heavily. It was all or nothing anyways. Then, in that one moment, all the nerves just vanished. I only had one thing on my mind. To do my very best, I've found my motivation. I wouldn't let myself be bettered. No, I wouldn't stand for it.

Then the doors opened, and the 6 of us were all ushered in.

The first 15 minutes of preparation went quite well. I wouldn't say I completely understood the visual stimulus I had nor that I had many points. A little elaboration was there but that's all I had.

After what felt like.. a long time, it was time for us to move on into the actual examination room. Found my station, Room 1 which was really close to where all the lecturers overseeing us were seated. Did my audio check as instructed by the supervisor and waited patiently till I was greeted.

"Good morning, I'm your examiner for today. My name is.."

The rest was a blur. So the practical began.

Part A was just introductions and establishing that comfort level between examiner and uhh.. student?

Part B. I started to elaborate on my points. Before I knew it, I heard "Thank you. We will now move on to a hidden question" LIKE WHAT?! Nobody else that I asked had actually gotten asked a hidden question. I really feel I did badly.. :(

Part C. Got asked some question I was unfamiliar with but against all odds, I managed to pull myself together and string my points somewhat coherently.

The feedback I got from the lecturers present and my own opinion conflicts. I don't know!! I need to get that Part B cleared up. D:!

After that, waited for Cornelia Watson and Jing to come to college. Heading out to lunch / dessert at SS15. (:

Met up with Alvin, Kelvin, Wei Cheng and Yong at AC at SS15.

POOL.

Why can't I think of longer elaborations?

Screw it.

Live with the one liners.

That's all for today.

What up, non-finishers?

:D

Doodle #32 : Firsts

*stares in disbelief* "What?! Did you just say that?!"

"Hey, omg is that Quadrapop? :O!"

"Oh no, nobody's sitting here. Nah, I don't mind"

"I vote you as leader!"

"You're not with him? D:"

"You played paintball? Whoa.. how was it? *intrigued* :O"

"Here, I took an extra copy for you :)"

"Pictures? Ah okay why not *jumps in*"

9 months have passed since then. Some of my earliest recollections of what's passed.

A Concoction of Lust

Mixed with a malignant intent.

We don't talk as often as we used to. I'm actually pained by that fact. The laughs, the jokes, they all used to be second nature, they came naturally at some point. What happened?

I miss the old times, the hyperness, the sense of comfort, it just felt so right. I was at ease, with no care in the world. What mattered was the moment, not the passed nor the future. To live in the moment was to be alive.

Now, everything feels so odd. I can't string together any coherent sentences, all I'm able to manage is a few grumbles that may or may not go unnoticed when I speak.

I don't know what this feeling is, the only thing I'm certain of is that I've some form of attachment, even dependence, and I don't wanna lose it. I feel broken, like a piece of me is missing. I miss you, I truly do, in an odd way. I want you there, yet I don't for I fear that I'll be a burden. The conscience that I had always confided in.

I'm perpetually at a tug of war. When I get drawn to one side, I begin to distance myself from the other. Ever since the split way back, everything's been divided into two, connections are still there but nothing's truly whole.

It's true that I get attached easily. Way too easily for my own good, way too easily for anyone's good. A friendship that's starting to wear out and lose it's luster.

But enough bout that, went out for a snack very early dinner at SS15.

Carmen and Kah Mun, my two AusMat sisters. (:

That concludes today's post. I'm off to Pizza Hut in about 30 minutes before heading over to Jon's place. :D

Leave It

Stagnant air fills my lungs.

The atmosphere feels heavy, weighed down by the tension, the awkwardness. I open my mouth to speak but I only manage silence. Fragments of my thoughts, bits and pieces of words, stringed together in a feeble attempt to form a barely tangible sentence. The words comes out in chunks, the intonation's weak as I will myself to be more than myself.

Futile indeed.

My soul's exposed, susceptible once more to the blades as the dagger's hilt is being driven into me. The blow I once suffered is more than just skin deep. It shattered my very core. I could feel nothing, I could see nothing, all I felt was what I heard, the screeching laughter piercing the air, mocking how far I've fallen. Faceless silhouettes, resembling those I thought I knew surround me cutting off any escape. I held my head down in defeat. Defeat, that I had snatched from the jaws of victory.

Indifference, I've been called cold on many occasions but nothing comes close to how much this one stung.

With exam's looming at the corner, there's no time for soul searching. But I know, I found one of my missing pieces back, to dwell on my thoughts, those way past their expiration dates. (:

Grey clouds are forming on my horizon again, the light is fading. The light that I've trying to reach, never able to grasp.

It should have been a good day. Should.

The stupid lectures I've had to endure. The vanity and conceitedness, why on earth hadn't I stopped myself then? Coming across a reference really shakes me.

Relapse Five

I need a haircut. Badly.

It's already the end of Wednesday in one of the longest weeks so far of college.

Monday
Had to get EAL/D work done as my group's presentation was due that very morning. Perhaps I should not have procrastinated so much and just have got it done the very week the assignment was given. Oddly enough, I did get my part fully done the week the assignment was given, yet somehow I managed to put off all the tiny details until the very day itself which almost resulted in presenting late. I had to run all over college to photostat the notes for class.

When the photostat shop finally opened, there were 3 people in front of me, so I asked one of them "Excuse me, can you just let me photostat mine first? I've a presentation due in 5 minutes" in which she replied "Uhh.. me too" D:! The world is full of procrastinators. Tsk.

I think all the running really tired me out, I didn't even show the bullet train during presentation, was still in the midst of gasping for air.

Overall, okay day. Finally have EAL/D off my chest now. Or so I thought..

Tuesday
Nothing much on the day's agenda except to prepare for the Chemistry quiz later that day. Met up with the C/D gang at the discussion room to prep when someone from one of the earlier groups came in and said "No need study laaaaa, very easy! Only drawing and naming"

Sure enough, most of us were taken aback before giving each other a look that practically screamed "Screw the test, let's go pyramid" No wait, we all said that aloud. :D

Lunch at McD's, or rather, breakfast. We finally got to eat the breakfast set. It's been almost 7 months since I last ate one. ):

Note to Jing, stay away from me. You're darn scary, STOP HITTING ME LA!

Managed to get back to college early and sat around waiting for the test.

I think I made careless mistakes.. AGAIN. Side-effect from overconfidence =.=

Wednesday (Today)
Summed up with the few simple words "Death by Maths" (:



In unrelated news, I've a bio AND phy topic test coming up tomorrow. Go figure.

Study

It was a long day, a very long day.

I got up at 8AM yesterday and got ready to leave for college. Yes, on a Saturday. Why, you ask? Well, I was never able to get anything done at home. Exhibit A : I'm slacking off right now watching HIMYM instead of doing work. So I figured it'd be way more productive for me to head on over to college to do some studying. After all, Sunway was barely 15 minutes away by car.

So I drove there and reached around 9, had my breakfast and headed over to the MZ in the library where I found Marcus. Tidied up my EAL/D parts and managed to get the graphic organiser done with a little help. Dawdled a bit with the computer while waiting for Mun and Watson. Once they were there, we got down to business, opened our books and started studying. Mainly for Chemistry as there was a test coming up next Tuesday. Studied from 11 till 1.

It was time for lunch then, we were joined by Marc's gf. Headed over to SS15's Jojo's Kitchen (I think that's what it's called) for some Pan Mee. I've been there once before with some of my Taylor-ian friends and the food is quite good. After lunch, got dessert at Snowflakes. AC was right across the street, so close.. yet so far. Of course, the others gave me that cold stare whenever I brought it up. LOL

Got back to college around 2-ish. Library was closed by then. :(

Found ourselves a class to study in for about 2 hours before we had to leave it. *glanced at watch ~ 4:30pm* Now what? Having almost no other place to study in college, we headed over to Sun-U and found the study room. Which was actually pretty nice to study in. Aircond. Hee :3 But by then we were all tired. Like really tired. The next 3 to 4 hours passed in a blurry haze.

Dinner at RC with Mun, Marc, Watson, Jack and 2 of their Ipoh friends.

Once again, it was a VERY LONG day. Yet strangely enjoyable.

Longest time I've spent in college since Velvet Auditions and Famine.


On a side note..

When you have nightmares like that, you know it's a sign.

Conformation

Assimilated into everyday society, losing whatever traits you once had that sets you apart from the everyday individual. Guess I'm just your Average Joe now.

Today's the last day of my holidays. 7 days flashed by without any chance for me to take some time off and relax. Now that's a blatant lie. I've been way too relaxed the past week. In fact, I was relaxed to the point of near breakdown due to the lack of things to do. Yeah, I hate you holidays and also my lack of motivation to hit the books cause I know trying would be a lost cause.

Day 1
I awoke with a start around 7am. Oh right, it was the holidays, there's no point for me to be up early, went back to bed and woke up again at 10am. Opened up some Chemistry books in an attempt to revise. Failed miserably as I got distracted by HIMYM.

Day 2
I woke up at 7am, without my alarm, again. Got up, watched HIMYM and played HoN

Day 3
Woke up at 10am (woohoo) then HIMYM the rest of the day.

Day 4
HIMYM

Day 5
Swimming plan cancelled, so HIMYM instead.

Day 6
HIMYM

Day 7
Swimming plan canceled AGAIN, so here I am.. Writing this post and HIMYM.

The holidays were lack.. wait for it.. luster.

Lies

We have ALL done it before at least once in our lives.

There's no point trying to deny it. To do so would be to lie. Nobody can claim to have never lied before, in fact I doubt that such a person actually exists. Lying is practically a way of life now, it seeps its way into every corner of society. It lingers around, becoming a norm. After all, it's all in a day's work to at least lie once a day. Twisting words of manipulation in order to fabricate a web of deception.

Why lie you ask?

People lie for all sorts of reason. They do so to keep the truth from people, as the saying goes "Truth hurts". Sometimes they just don't realise that being lied to hurts so much more.

"Truth hurts but lie's worse" from Broken Strings.

People have this notion that if they keep something hurtful away from a person, they'll spare him or her the pain of knowing. They don't want to be the one delivering the sorrow or sadness so they dodge responsibility.

I guess that kind of lie's a white lie.

Think about the times you were a kid and you had a household pet. Then one day, it goes missing and everyone tells you it went on 'holiday'. Being the kid you are, you sit around, patiently awaiting its return only to find out what really happened years later. There's no such thing as a holiday.

They lie, to assure that all's well. When everything goes the way they hoped, sure, everybody's happy for the time being. Until it slips. You know what's gonna happen next.

One wonders why are lies so believable. I suppose that as some people tell lies to protect others, there is also the people who trust lies to protect themselves. It's practically the opposite of being scared to hurt someone, you just don't want to hurt yourself, which is why lies are just so believable at times. You just hope for something so badly and when someone talks about it in a positive manner, honest or not, you just jump at it and swallow every word. It's kinda ironic that your own desires lead to your own downfall in the end as you fail to see truth within a network of lies.

"I don't like to tell lies to people. Sure I could, but then I'd go on and on and sooner or later it's going to get out of hand"

The snowball effect.

When you start lying, you'll just keep lying again and again. In the beginning, it could be any small matter, you'd probably think it's harmless. Before you know it, you'll start lying about every small matter and in no time, it'll snowball itself into one big unmanageable problem.

A problem created by your own two hands, or rather, your mouth.

It just isn't right to play along to someone's way of thinking if reality dictates otherwise. You can only shield that person for so long. The longer the ploy is kept up, the greater the backlash when reality catches up, shattering the illusion.

What matters is time lost. Nothing else.

But I guess sometimes.. Ignorance is bliss. The world is a much simpler place thanks to lies.

Be honest, it'll do everyone some good (:

Doodle #31

Why do I always dream of the weirdest things?

Literally.

The world was going to end in a month.

I took a shot, and everything worked out perfectly. The happiest month of my life. Then, on that very last day, everything went black.

I woke up.

30 days in 7 hours.

Sigh.

Doodle #30 : Pass

Another 24 hours, another day gone to waste. I can't believe I'm starting HoN again, hopefully I'll be able to maintain control over the number of hours I spend gaming.

Back to studying.

Maybe.. Just maybe, I have time still. I just wanna see that face again, before I leave this town. (:

Look Up To The Sun

I left it alone for way too long..

No longer am I able to recall better days, all that remains of those days are a vague, clustered and distant thoughts I cannot bring myself to reach. Superficial desires, that do nothing but bring me down. Wants, I have to kill in order to gather myself back.

Tread lightly, for the slightest of movements triggers the worst of alarms..

You slip, you hear the low rumbling grow louder and closer with each passing second. You stare at the ground in horror to find the floor collapsing from beneath your feet. You stagger for balance, you dip and you dive, trying to escape the inevitable doom that literally claws away at your feet, as it reveals a fissure in the ground, one that leads nowhere.

Sometimes, the most brightly lit roads are those littered with the most thorns. You weather each impact as you trip over the vines that lay all around as you slowly entangle yourself within them, till there's no longer any viable escape options. You either make it through, or you die trying.

Stability is non-existant. To be happy and cheerful one minute only to turn into an aggressive and seclusive individual without warning nor want. Bring out the best, bring out the worst, without control over which shows up.

Be who you want to be..

Maybe, just maybe. I still can hold it all together. With a little help (:

I may have stumbled upon the link, or rather. My attribute.

Nothing Beats Surprises

Gathered for a 'surprise birthday party' for Kareshma yesterday evening with Jon, Hong Ye, King Yang, Edwin, Joy, Aly, Yen Khye, Joel, Naidu, Krystle, Natalie, Nabeel. Can't say it was much of a surprise. Not when everyone came in a total of 4 cars which stuck out like a sore thumb when Kareshma looked down the street on her way home.


Edwin, the noob. :D

So we gathered in a small room waiting to pounce on the ever unsuspecting birthday girl.

Still waiting for the birthday girl to get home.

The cake :)

All lighted and prepared to ambush Kareshma.

We all ran to the kitchen as she came back and went upstairs. I can't say it was the stealthiest of all surprises. We made quite the ruckus, especially Naidu who just couldn't contain her laughter when she tried to relight a candle. That not only blew out more candles, it blew away our cover too. True enough, Kareshma didn't really have a surprised face when we all showed ourselves. Maybe she was expecting it. :D

KAY EFF SEE! It's finger lickin' good!

Fear the Naidu!!!

From left : Natalie, Aly, Kareshma the birthday gurl, Naidu, Krystle and Joy.

So we decided to watch a movie next. We couldn't really decide on what to watch so we picked the one with the most interesting cover, Flight of the Living Dead. It had some screaming woman on the cover. Attention grabbing indeed. Of course, the girls were all against a zombie movie. So we flipped a coin, guess who won. :D

DIE DIE DIE DIE *anticipation*

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

Not so scared looks.

Zombie movies are so cliche'd. First, a lone zombie escapes imprisonment / comes back from the dead / etc. Then it starts a mini rampage of bloodlust, killing innocent civilians every now and then. Soon, the amount of zombies increase and start to spread panic among citizens. However, this time it was all confined to a small space of an passenger aircraft. Survivors or witnessness who were lucky enough to escape the onslaught after witnessing the cruel massacre of civilians by the flesh-eating deranged creatures all run haphazardly to anybody nearby trying to warn them of their impending doom but always stutter the same few lines.

"They're coming!"

"We're all gonna die!!"

"I don't know what it was but it wasn't HUMAN!"

"That THING killed everyone!"

I mean seriously, is it so hard to say zombie or does anyone else notice that NOBODY in a zombie movie has ever heard or seen a zombie before. I mean we know bout them through movies, but one wonders.. Don't they have zombie movies in the movie world itself?

So everyone dies / zombified but a select few as with every movie. And I kept seeing the SAME 5 zombies reappear OVER AND OVER AND OVER AGAIN! Even the original zombie who I swore I seen its dead get shot, blown up, whacked off by a putter, shot AGAIN just kept coming back, intact with seemingly godly powers of regeneration. Meh.

Of course, it ended with the plane crashing within walking distance of a nearby town. How convenient.

Went to mamak next. Whee.

Every Song Brings Me Back

Swinging round revolving doors..

Sometimes it does feel good to reminiscent. Sometimes. Which is a pretty small proportion of all the time. Sitting alone, getting lost in your thoughts with music as your only company. It's pretty funny how everything just seems to fall into place, like a tiny homemade music video, especially for the songs that mean more than your average addiction. (:

I'm the world's biggest fan of cliches..

I can't say yesterday was the best of days, I got careless which lead to another lapse in my self-control. Maybe I lost more than what I had initially expected, my focus, my concentration, virtually non-existent now.

Time stopped when she walked by..

Every song can be linked, or maybe it's how I force myself to perceive the world. Everything's connected. No two events are fully seperated. Even the tiniest of choices can set off a chain reaction, snowballing into one big one.

You used to talk to me like I was the only one around..

Nothing is as it seems. Everyone has a front, a ploy, to cover up their true selves. Is it in human nature to be hypocritical? To say you despise a person's attitude at times only to turn into them the next minute? To hate how people complain when they don't achieve the ridiculously high goals they've set for themselves although their accomplishment is already greater than yours only to do the same to others. Maybe it's a form of pride for yourself, or the envy towards others. For that, I am guilty.

You're only the best I ever had..

That concludes it. The opening day of my holidays look as dull as indifferent as ever. The only joy holidays have to offer is the chance to sleep in, late. Not that it really helps cause the sun shines into my room through my window and onto my still half-asleep self, forcing me to get up.

Cleaning the kitchen stove made my hands so oily -___-

I can't do any work now. Garh. The oil stains won't come off!

Doodle #29 : Stressed

A crack in the seamless glass. Slowly, it makes it way from one end to the other, till everything just shattered.

Just read up bio and chem. I feel suffocated.

Why do I feel so awkward now? People are drifting away, 1 by 1..

The Platinum Rule

From HIMYM.

A rule above the golden rule, love thy neighbour.

Never love thy neighbour.

Step 1 : Attraction

The attraction is instant, and undeniable.

Step 2 : Bargaining

Back off if anything gets weird.

Step 3 : Submission

Step 4 : Perks

There's always an upside, at first. When everything goes well.

Step 5 : The Tipping Point

Oh no..

Step 6 : Purgatory

You now have to do what you've been dreading all along.

Step 7 : Confrontation

"We need to talk"

Step 8 : Fallout

When you have to see that person again.

Step 9 : Co-existance

When you finally get over all the anger and resentment and let go, move on with you

LOL. Yeap, Barney's awesome.

A Break

I'd like to start this post with a bit of good news.

I FINALLY have my guitar back!


Welcome back my dear Vendetta. I missed you so!

It's about time. I think I'm lacking over 2 months of guitar practice. To sum it up, I'm pretty much a novice, again. Not that I was much of a guitarist to begin with. Perhaps I just lack some sort of affinity for it..

Another good piece of news.

The holidays are here! It's time for Raya!

Although I wouldn't exactly call the onset of holidays a piece of good news for myself. I never liked holidays. Na uh, we go way back, and it wasn't pretty. I'm getting a week off from college, not to relax, but to read up and study, revise for my upcoming MOCK examination. It's going to contribute around 40% or so of my overall internal marks for each subject. Feel the pressure. I don't like working under pressure, or deadlines. Really gives me the overworrying sensation that everything could fall apart if I forget one tiny piece of work.

EALD, MAT3C/3D, Chemistry, Biological Science, Physics.

You are ALL going down! Rawr. :D

I guess that's it for now.

"It's easier to build love from friendship than it is to build friendship from love."

An original quote. :)

I feel the poetic mood rise up within me. LOL

I gotta get back to work, or in this case.. Practice. :)

Doodle #28 : Restart

Trying my best doesn't mean I'm obligated to succeed.

Best Day Ever

The day started out pretty normal, I got up early, headed off to college, attended classes. It felt the same as any other day. Little did I know the surprise that awaited me. The day'll turn out oh so different later on.

After EAL/D, we all went to Sunway Pyramid with Marcus, Itianne, Amanda, Limei, May Ling, Gazi. With the exception of me and Marcus, everyone was A/B. (:

The shorties, Limei and May Ling with Marcus.

Marcus drinking his coke through a burger. No, he really did pierce his straw through the burger. OMG AHAHHA!

I think there's just something about Carl's Jr. that makes us all go nuts after eating (:

Group shot. From left : May Ling, Amanda, Gazi, Itianne, me, Marcus, Limei.

Headed over to pool next, what would a celebration be without pool? LOL

China gurl looks so homesick ):

Sure, everything was fun but the best was yet to come.

Headed back to college after pool. May Ling was so annoyed by my constant harassing since she almost never joins us in any other outing. D:

Another few hours of classes. Skipped Maths, muahahah. There was a power cut anyway, so almost the whole college was in a blackout state, :) Plus, teacher was still on leave, so just picked up the assignment given to us then hung around the 3rd floor corridor with Mun, Jo, Kelly, Itianne and Amanda. :D

4.30, it was time to head off to Sunway Pyramid again, only this time it was with the C/D gang : Mun, Jo, Kelly, Su Qi and hopefully Prem. Sadly, Watson couldn't make it and Jing pulled out last minute. It wasn't as big a group as I had initially planned out but as long as they're there, that's all that matters to me (:

Or so I thought.

Didn't really plan out what to do yet so I just let the others decide. They all wanted to eat, at TGIF. Just tagged along as I really had nothing in mind, yet the timing for dinner was quite early, and odd.

Finally reached the place, walked in and.. BOOM!

I see Prem, Jing, Gazi and Watson staring at me. I guess the look of shock and astonishement was clear on my face. D:!

Shots during dinner. They just kept staring at me at the start. I must've seriously looked stunned, shocked, or amazed or all 3. :D

*adjusts specs*

My dearest AusMat sister (:

Of course, when you celebrate your birthday at TGIF, or when your friends decide to celebrate it for you there, you just know what's going to happen. The TGIF crew swarming you and making you do a whole lotta things. The branch in Subang Parade only sang / serenaded the birthday guy / gal the last I recalled. But the one at Pyramid. Uh-oh.

I had to stand on the chair, sing, and made a speech to my dearest friends, which I gladly did in the hype of the moment. :D!

Cake time! *puts candle*

Yummy!! :)

Make a wish (:

Group Shot 1.


Group Shot 2, from left : Natasya, Su Qi, Kelly, Prem, Mun, Jo, me, Gazi, Amanda, Cornelia, Jing. :) :) :)


The girls.

Went for pool.. AGAIN! Don't ask why I look like THAT, even I don't recall that moment!

Thanks to the people I love most. They completely made my day, it was by far, the best day in my life, hands down. (:

They're My World

It's that time of year again, the one day you're supposed to enjoy no matter what happens or will happen.

I'm not expecting much from the day, I just want my family to be there. (:

I kinda once did a tag on this, but I thought it'd be nice to redo it, in my own way.

I'm just gonna write a little bit on a certain person I know, and we'll see if you can tell who's who (:

Now.. Who should I write about first..?

You, my brother. Ever the attentive and analytical one. In the beginning I found you quite odd. Yes I did, sue me. At first glance I knew you were the serious type yet you never really showed off the serious side of you. I guess I can say I looked up to you since the first day I met you. Always the confident one, yet playful in ways which are far from subtle. Of course, always with the squeaky voice. (:

Now.. Who's next?

I don't even remember how I got close to you. Guess my memory doesn't go that far back. But somehow, I managed to know you better. Well, I can't say I'm at the rank of what you call a best friend, but I'm more of your friend at the moment. I'm sorry to tell you I actually thought we only shared one class, till a few months back where I realized we shared 3. D: You have my humblest apologies! The cuter one among the family, and one of the smaller members too (:

Thirdly..

The one I can be completely stupid around. You're probably the most impacting person I've met in my life, both in a literal and metaphorical way, HAHA! I guess that line pretty much gave you away. The one who I know I can rant on and on to, and yes I do feel guilty at times for losing sight of when to stop. What can I say? I have a short attention span. But this I can say, I am truly grateful to have been able to meet you this year, you changed the year in so many ways for me (:

Now now..

I can't possibly leave you out now can I? Since the day I met you, you struck me with awe. The first thought that went through my head was "Oh please, I'm going to be in the same class as you?! Cut me some slack" I was sadly mistaken, I wouldn't have enjoyed college at all had I not met you. You put the colour in my otherwise bland life, literally. These months with you have been rather chaotic, to say the least, we've ups and downs. My brother, from another colour (:

Next!

I don't really know what to write about you. I can't say I know you too well but I guess I'm not that far off anyway. Oh, now let's get into the whole serious mood and tone. Cough cough *clears throat* Truly, I am blessed to have the opportunity to be graced by your presence. The time for which I have known you was not long, but it's been rather entertaining nevertheless. There is one thing though, the thought of you having a playful sight piques my interest. So, is there such a side to you? LOL (:

In addition..

I'd feel bad for leaving you out. But I've said all there is to be said. (:

Furthermore..

I'm just gonna group you guys into one group. That itself is a huge clue already. The people we're supposed to be looking up to and yet they're.. So mature. Or rather two of them are "mature" LOLOLOL (:

Moreover..

Ever since February I've lost any recollection of you besides those from classes. That just goes to show how you've deviated yourself from me D: I know I'm not worthy of being called your friend. Touche, you've found a cooler gang, who needs us anyway? HAH. I'm just messing with ya, But seriously, I kinda miss eating with you, from wayyyyyy back. LOL! (:

Drumroll please..

I can't say that our first meeting was one of grace, but it was certainly memorable. I doubt there's many people out there who'd be unaffected if the very first words they heard from you were those that I heard. Wise choice of words indeed! Can't say I blame you though. (:

On the other hand..

My first impression of you was one who was hardworking, focused and diligent. That hasn't changed much over the course of the year and the time I've known you. There's more than meets the eye and your occasional blurness is what makes you fun to be around. It's just kinda fun to see your reaction some times, haha! Always so cheerful, and so you. Ever ready to listen, and the only other person I wouldn't snap at should I be depressed. I kinda feel happier around you (:

Who else is there..

I guess the most striking and memorable thing bout you is your hyperness. It's a good thing, we get to make you do all our presentations for us, since you're so good at it, HAHA. You're also my good stoning buddy every Tuesday and Thursday, till sometime ago when those 2 days became studying time. (:

Almost there..

Oh how could I leave you out? The victim of my iPhone, HAHAHA! There's just something about bullying you that makes it so.. enjoyable. HOISH you! I know you hate candid shots of yourself. (:

Last but not least..

I would say you're one of the quieter ones among us, mostly. I guess it depends on the situation. But in msn you're always quiet! Sheesh! You were always up to things, from tearing pool tables to hunting deers. (HAHAHAH LOL) One of the most unique people I've met (:

COUGH!

That pretty much sums everything up (:

I kinda miss the times I met all of you. It kinda feels surreal to think back and reflect on everything we've went through. Time flies way too fast, I don't want my time with all of you to end.

Friends in the eyes of others, family in mine.

It may not be a big circle, but it's a tightly woven one. I've never felt this attached to anyone else in my life.

Thanks for making this one of the most, if not the most memorable years of my life (:

Doodle #27 : Lament

Lately I've been getting an odd sensation. I blank out at times, and I fall into a dreamy state other times. I suppose I'm just getting confused. I'm even losing my appetite to eat, now THAT's not a good thing. To seperate a man from his stomach and depriving it of its well needed nourishment is nothing short of diabolical. Not that I actually get ANY nourishment from my anti-vege diet but..

Meh.

The notion that exams are coming up in slightly over a month frightens me. Not the fact that I've to study really hard to catch up on the days I've slacked off, but the thought that my time in Sunway is finally coming to an end. I guess all good things really must come to an end. I don't want to leave Sunway, I don't want to leave the people I've met behind. They mean the world to me, more than anything else.

Speaking of which I've got to get that post finished up. Look out for the next post. Hee! :D

Na-uh-uh, I ain't done yet!

Today felt long, maybe it was just the Thursday blues again. But today was strangely long compared to your average Thursday. Managed to get to college around 7.30 so once again I began my stoning routine while attempting to finish up homework. Got to the library at 8.30 and Viwawa-ed till 9.30 before heading off to find my MS teacher to hand in my group's report for our assignment. Went down to the second floor of the library while waiting for the rest to get off class.

Lunch with Marcus, it felt quite quiet without the whole gang. ):

Bio and Physics class next. I can't tell whether was I more sleepy or hungry. Or maybe it was a good mixture of both.

And now I've EAL/D work to finish up before tomorrow. I don't wanna end up in the Corner of Shame. After all, I've never been in it. *beams*

I need time, and time is something I don't have.

Doodle #26 : Prance Around The Ashes

I'll start off with saying..

I'm glad you think that way too. Now I've no reason not to stick to this. Thanks for helping me make my mind up. (:

Can't say the day started on a good note. Went through my whole boring morning routine and had to wait till the library opened before I could get started on the day. So I stoned around, and waited, waited, waited some more. Then I spotted a familiar face walking around, Amanda. :D

Finally 8.30, went to library with Amanda, who wouldn't stop scrutinizing how I wrote my posts and my usage of tenses. LOL! I only had about an hour to revise for Phy which I didn't make the most out of, sadly enough. I flipped through my textbook, found a few chapters I didn't understand and passed them without a second thought.

Ironically enough, everything I skipped reading through came out. Pretty much sucked. For the first time ever I think I'm going to fail my Physics test.

Went for lunch at Orange. I could've sworn I saw a silhouette pass by and vanish the next second. It doesn't concern me anyways. All the better.

After lunch, the 5 of us made our way back to college and to the library, again. Printed out notes for the whole gang, and finished up Bio. Marc, Jo and I all handed em in. Bwahaaha. 2 days ahead of its due date. Which isn't really that big a feat to begin with. Hhaha! Then everything started to look up (:

Classes as usual, then spent almost an hour just sitting around before heading home.

Traffic however, couldn't have been more hellish. D:!