Thursday, April 15, 2010

Anxious and paranoid

Paranoia, a sense of utter dread, which leads to shutting myself completely from the outside world. I despise this feeling.

In 4 hours I said less than 20 words, shows how bad I feel today.
Why does this happen everytime smth goes smoothly?

I pretend to not notice you, but I do.
I fake distraction to avoid you, but I cringe in pain later.
I try to keep walking, but my feet are frozen in place.
I look away, but I turn back to see you.
You knock me down and bring me up again.
My heart skips a beat at the sight of you.

It's been a short while, but you've made it all worth it. But no, not yet.
I'll make my move soon, wait for me. (:

It comes down to petty jealously, oh how did I fall this low?

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