Argh

I hate the feeling of getting left out.

Nothing seems to go right, something always seem to get in the way.

Garh

SCHOOL!

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Emo -> Recover -> Try -> Fail. Repeat.
That's what it used to be before I got disconnected at the Emo stage.

I think it's starting all over again.

Tried to see the good in life

Did I ever mention how I have a knack to always manage to find something to read and/or see which gets me really depressed? Well if I haven't, then I just did. Maybe it's a subconscious thing. Every single time I start to feel happy and/or cheery/ positive emotions, I always seem to stumble upon smth which just completely reverses my mood. Mmm... I don't get it either. Just happened again. Now I feel like crap, way to go Kinoc.

So far only 1 person has actually figured out what was it I kept doing that made myself depressed. Wasn't that hard to figure out.

Note : Using a 3rd person point of view can get pretty ironic.

Over The Top

It's official. I'm a fuckin' idiot. I think what I did today was by far the most ridiculous, reckless, dangerous, and I might add, painful stunt. Of all the things to do and of all the ways it could have ended up, good thing I wasn't hurt seriously and/or paralysed. That'd suck.. bad.

I blame JW for this LOL. After gym, he dared ash to do some parkour shit stunt and climb the stairs. The side that is.. The vertical wall.. you know that short one halfway up the stairs with the gap underneath it.. Near the tennis court. Well Gazi tried 1st.. But.. He didn't dare, cause it looked scary. Good for him, smart choice. Then ash did it. It wasn't perfect but least he landed safely. He made it look so easy so I thought I'd try as well. BIG mistake. I got up pretty ok.. Didn't give the landing much thought, and I rushed it. And I also underestimated the height of the drop.

Results?
Fall, crash and burn. Lol. Not quite.. I landed on my feet(phew?). Then, almost immediately.. I slipped.. And fell on my ass. It fuckin' hurt. And yes, being the thoughtful considerate friends they are. They couldn't help but enjoy the brief moment of EPIC PHAILURE and laughing at my pain :D
Hmm.. just gotta love those guys. Note the sarcasm.

Tagged yet again

1. The person who tagged you is :
Elaine

2. Your relationship with him/her is :
Friends

3. Your first impression of him/her is:
Ouch, she hits hard. LMAO

4. The most memorable moments with he/she is:
Err... BBQ? lol

5. The most memorable thing he/she has said to you is:
Don't emo:)

6. If he/she becomes your lover
err.. I'll go with "lolx, wth"

7. If he/she became your lover, what should he/she improve that:
Attitude LOLX :P

8. If he/she becomes your enemy, what will you do:
Nah, doubt that'll happen XD

9. If he/she becomes your enemy, the reason will be:
Probably cause erm..

10. The most desired things you want to do for him/her now is:
Give her DotA skills, LMAO

11. Your overall impression on him/her is:
Great friend :D

13. The characteristic you hate most about yourself:
Antisocial

14. The most ideal person you want to be is:
The person I envy oh-so-much

15. For people who care and love you, say something to them:
yeah, whatever. lol

16. Pass this quiz to 10 people who you want to know how they feel about you:

1)Samuel
2)Alicia
3)Lillian
4)Jon
5)Andrea
6)Qao Shaun
7)Beng Way
8)Krystle
9)Chee Chew
10)Cyber

17. Who is 6 having a relationship with?
No idea

18. Is 9 a male or a female?
Male

19. What is 2 studying at the moment?
The same as everyone else on that list

20. Who was the last person you had a chat with?
If msn counts, Elaine. lawls

21. What kind of music does 8 like?
Not too sure, lol.

22. Does 1 have any siblings?
A sister and a brother.

23. Is 4 single?
Yeah, I think. lol

24. What is the surname of 5?
Ng

25. What's the hobby of 3?
No idea :D

26. Do 7 and 9 get along well?
Most of the time, haha.

27. Where is 10 studying at?
I don't know, LOL

28. Say something casual about your eyes:
Black

29. Have you tried developing feelings for 2?
Lmao, hell no.

30. Where does 9 live?
Kota Kemuning

31. What colour does 4 like?
Err...

32. Are 5 and 1 good friends? / Do they know each other?
Hmm, they're okay I guess

33. Does 2 like 7?
I'd laugh if she did.

34. How did you get to know 8?
Classmates since primary school

5. Does 3 have any pets?
Nope

36. Is 7 the sexiest person in the world?
HAHAHA, I think he thinks so. LOL!

37. Are you sexy?
Lol.. Zz stupid question.

38. What are you doing now?
Posting this tag, chatting, the usual.

An epiphany

Yeah, whatever you call that. I had to think up of a random title since I've run out of ideas besides the same old ones that read "Holiday joy", "The fun of holidays", so on so forth. You get the idea. Just got home from what I consider one of the worst places to spend a weekend. Those of you who know me well enough should know where that place is very well. Okay maybe it isn't THAT bad. But still, it brought back the worst day of my life, in replayable video form in my head. Yeah whatever, enough about that.

Back to the good stuff, now that I'm finally home.. I can get back to my normal routine. Gaming, guitar, gir-ahem, and facebooking. Hmm, guess one of the reasons I'd rather not go back to my hometown is that it gives me way too much time to reflect on my life. Yes, that's why I hate it :D

Note to self : Brooding never helps. Be happy :D! Or so I've heard.

P.s. Gazi you're a bitch :D

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I'm tired of thinking of titles for blog post. Just need to rant a bit about the pathetic state I'm in. Haha. Yeah I know it's the hols and all, and I should be enjoying it. But I've been feeling weird lately. Then again I feel weird all the time. Not to mention being depressed and whatnot.

Gonna go out tomorrow, Sunway, as usual lar.. Where else is there to go? Hopefully it'll being some holiday spirit back into me, haha. It's been awhile since I've felt truly cheerful and whatnot, given the crap that's constantly on my mind.

Do I still feel the way I as I used to? I don't think so. I'm getting really confused. Maybe it's just impossible, a fact that I've solidified in my mind ever since.. then. Yeah, I know I pretty much suck at this crap, given that I've only experienced it once. D:! Maybe it's starting all over again. Only this time it's a different person, or is it?

I don't even know what I'm saying. I guess my state of mind is just.. messed up. As it has been for months. S'pose I'm done ranting now. Back to brooding in solitude. Yes, I'm a sad phail case, I acknowledge that :)

Tagged, well it's smth to do

1. Besides your lips , where is the favourite spot to get kissed?
Nowhere

2. How did you feel when you woke up this MORNING?
Dizzy, disoriented, wanting to go back to bed.

3. Who was the last person/people you took a photo WITH?
It's been too long, I can't remember.

4. Would you consider yourself SPOILED?
No, highly doubt I am.

5. Will you ever donate BLOOD?
I highly doubt this as well, have a fear of needles. zz

6. Have you ever had a best friend who was of the opposite SEX?
I suppose, anyway who doesn't?

7. Do you want someone to be DEAD?
Yes, and everyone knows who that is.

8. What does your last text message SAY?
Thank you thank you

9. What are you thinking about right NOW?
The question "What are you thinking about right NOW"

10. Do you want someone to be with you right NOW?
Not that it'll help, meh.

11. What was the time you went to bed last night?
10.30

12. Where did you buy the tee you are wearing now?
Shop

13. Is someone on your mind right NOW?
Yes.

14. Who was the last person who text YOU?
The same one in the above question.

TEN Lucky People to do this quiz.

1.) Sam
2.) Chee Chew
3.) Alicia
4.) Lillian
5.) Qao Shaun
6.) Andrea
7.) Jon
8.) Beng Way
9.) Joel
10.) Jun Hoe

15.Who is no.2 having a relationship WITH?
Don't look at me for answers

16. Is no.3 a male or a FEMALE?
A gal.

17. If no.7 and no.1 get TOGETHER , would it be a good?
Hmm, Sam and Jon, I can imagine.

18. What is no.1 studying?
The same thing all Form 5's study.

19. When was the last time you chatted with THEM?
The time varies with the person.

20. IS no.4 SINGLE?
No idea

21. Say something about no.2.
Terrorist :D

22. What do you think about no.3 & no.6 being TOGETHER?
Hmm, I'd rather not picture it.

23. Describe no.9.
Smart, a little TOO smart.

24 . What will you do if no.6 and no.7 FIGHT?
No idea, watch I guess.

25 . Do you like no.10?
Cuzzie :D

Freedom, or is it

Yes, the exams are finally OVER. Well it was over yesterday but I wasn't in mood to write a post about it. Not saying that I'm in the best of moods now but.. Ah screw that. Yes, exams over, after almost 3 really looooooooooooooooong weeks. I guess it's back to the same old routine now. DotA the day away. Although I'm already bored of it =/

Sigh, I feel kinda weird. Maybe it's just me though, should be enjoying the end of the exams. Back to brooding, ciaoz.