Thursday, April 30, 2009

Goodbye Pn. Leong

Yes, as the title goes, Pn. Leong, my physics teacher in Form4 is retiring. So I'd like to take this chance to say, "Goodbye and thanks for everything!". So today there was a Majlis Perpisahan thing in school. I won't get into details as I'm pretty sure probably Aly or Sot will write about it. So basically, our class, which is 5Sc1 did a "well thought out and planned" performance(with a few guests from Sc2 as well) for Pn. Leong. Then of course there was the whole giving her gifts thing and whatnot.

The majlis thing ended at about 9. Earlier than I'd expected and we were all sent back to class. I expected some ceramah, but no. There was studies D:!!!! Aiya..
Turns out the ceramah was AFTER recess. Zzz, which would be during EST time. Which is like.. one of the best subjects in school. Well.. haiz, went for the Maths ceramah.
It was really.. blur. and disorientating I might add. Even though I try to pay attention I just can't find the question the penceramah is talking about. I'll see question 7, turn over the page hoping to find question 8, only to see a new set of papers and question 1. Which got really annoying after the 5th attempt.

Then at about 12 in the afternoon. We were all dragged out of the hall(yay!) to stand in the sun (yay?). Yes, in the scorching hot sun. To wave for Pn. Leong as she passes by in a car. The school looked more crowded than it actually is, due to the number of people standing at each floor at the corridors. It was a really grand exit I might say.

In unrelated news, at the end of school..
Walked out, looked up, caught a glimpse of a smile(I think it was a smile), then quickly looked away as though I saw nothing. Yes, I am a useless faggot. I completely acknowledge that fact.
In another unrelated news, just read some article in TheStar about depression. Turns out I'm exhibiting at least 7 outta 10 of the symptoms written there.
D:! Gasps! Ah well like I care.

Wednesday, April 29, 2009

Day 96

Well I guess I'll just make another quick update. It's been a long day, again. For some reason nobody seems to be online at this particular moment, gawd I'm so bored. Hence, my post.

If you've heard of the application "Rock Legends" on Facebook, I highly recommend that you add that app, and also join my band :D and be a groupie. For the greater good! Err lol.

And yeah, there's been a hell lotta ceramahs today, namely 3. Which were.. Phy(somewhat boring), Chem(oo chem!) and also Add Maths(the dude rushed through it too fast). So basically it's one of those.. demoralizing days, been feeling like crap since recess. Maybe it's just a sense of realization on how useless I've been acting lately. Had a pretty.. "interesting" discussion in class today.. About that event at the end of the year. Yeah you know what I'm talking about. That one last party you get to attend as a Form 5. Despite the numerous encouragements, I highly doubt I'd even bother showing up for it, it's pretty meaningless to me anyways.

opening up to someone is one of the hardest things to do. Which is why I choose to just keep every single thought locked up in my head and just go on living in denial of the inevitable truth. It's much easier to deal with that way. Time to let my thoughts get drowned in a sea of music. Whatever that means.
Yes I know I'm acting all emo again. So what? It's my choice. Why should any of you care? Especially those who're the ones building the depression.

Friday, April 24, 2009

Short update

The past few weeks have been getting crappier. I guess my state of mind is deteriorating from day to day. I'm starting to get more forgetful about almost everything. Even the relaxing mornings I get when I wake up is gone, that was the time I can barely remember anything and just want to go back to sleep. At this rate I'm bound to fail my exams. And of course that's that whole 22 Dec thing. Which I'll probably won't bother at all. Really need to keep my mind occupied to stop it from thinking too much.

At least there's peace of mind while hanging out with the guys. Sam, Ash, Gazi, WY, JW, and even WK (D:!). What? Don't think I missed anyone out. Least I don't bother to think about crap as often around them although most of the time they're the ones making me think.

Monday, April 20, 2009

Lyrics hype

Quote : If you take all the pm you used, you can make a whole scrapbook with it.
Soooo... Well this isn't exactly pm's, but random lyrics to certain songs. D:

I got a lot to say to you,
They scribbled out the truth with their lies,
Nothing compares to a quiet evening along, just the two of us,
I guess I’m dreaming again.
Cause I’d rather waste my life pretending than having to forget you for one whole minute.

I’ve watched his wildest dreams come true, not one of them involving you.

Don’t come looking for me cause I’ll be right here with the words you said,
Rewind to the first time that I felt it coming,
I knew it would not last.
Make it quick, make it painless.

Breathe for love tomorrow cause there’s no hope for today.

How can I decide what’s right when you’re clouding up my mind?
I can’t win a losing fight, not this time.
How did we get here?
I used to know you so well.
Do you see what we’ve done?
We’ve gone and made such fools of ourselves.

Here we go again with all the things you said,
Forget the things we swore we meant.
Can’t say I’m sad to see you cause I’m not.
A jagged pulse runs through my veins.

I claimed I didn’t care for you,
But your verse got trapped inside my head.
Over and over again you played yourself to death in me.
I thought I’d drop you easily but that was not to be.
Even when I’m alone I hear your mellow drone,
Stuck on you till the end of time,
I’m too tired to fight your rhyme.
You’ve got me paralyzed.

Maybe I was wrong,
It’s been so long since I’ve heard a sound,
The sound of my only hope.
Sing us a song and we’ll sing it back to you.
We could sing our own but what would it be without you.

Tell me where our time went and if it was time well spent.
Just don’t let me fall asleep feeling empty again.
All of the days that we spent carried away from hope.
Somethings I’ll never know and I had to let them go.
You’re better off without me.

So this is how it goes, I would have never known.
And if it ends today, we’ll also say that you shine brighter than anyone.
I think we’re taking this too far, don’t you know that it’s not this hard?
But if you take whats yours and I take mine, must we go there?
Please not this time.
I’ll wave goodbye watching you shine bright.

Your promises never really meant a thing,
But they flow from your lips so easily,
Is my best at your heart?
The glass that rips your world apart.
I never was too good with goodbyes,
Will all the evil that you provided you still put the good in goodbye,
Stay away from me.

So what did you think I would say?
No you can’t run away, you wouldn’t.
I never wanted to say this,
I put my faith in you, so much faith in you,
And you just threw it away.

If you thought I’d leave then you were wrong.
So are you listening, are you watching me?
I can’t pretend that I don’t see this.
It’s really not your fault when no one cares to talk about it.
Cause I’ve seen love die way too many times when it deserved to be alive.

What a shame we all became such fragile broken things.
A memory remains, just a tiny spark.
Somewhere weakness is our strength and I’ll die searching for it.
I can’t let myself regret such selfishness.
No matter how long, I believe there’s hope buried beneath it all.

I just keep on falling back to the same old.
Where’s hope when misery comes crawling my way?
Live like it’s the last day you will ever see.
Right now you’re the only reason I’m not letting go.
You’ll trigger a landslide straight to me, kill off this finite state of mind.

You never said that you meant to save someone, somebody just like me.







Yes, completely random post. Another product of boredom.

Saturday, April 18, 2009

I'm tired of thinking of names for blog posts

To cut things short. I feel rather.. fucked up, and tired. Just got home from gym and it’s about 10.30pm. It’s been exactly 82 days since I last been to gym, since the end of January, the start of my hellish nightmare. I’m probably exaggerating the whole dam thing but who gives a dam anyway. So yeah, ain’t exactly in the best of moods now. I think I’ll just describe it as… That barrier I used to have that prevented all the negative emotions from taking over too much is gone. Then again that didn’t make much sense.

Did I mention how easily I get irritated nowadays? Was supposed to head straight over to the gym after tuition at 8 but only got there after 8.45 due to a miscommunication. Got friggin’ pissed off over that. And of course to complete my perfect day, I am devoid of internet yet again. So I’m writing this post offline for now.

Crappy stuff aside, I finally have L4D. Yes I know it’s been out for a friggin’ long time but I’m still new to it. And also I’m heading over to Sunway (agaaaaaaaaaain) tomorrow. Hopefully tomorrow will be better than today.

The night sky is so beautiful tonight. It’s so clear you can see all the stars. For that one moment I felt at peace.
Yes I know this post had nth to do with the title.

Signing off.

Saturday, April 11, 2009

Archuleta hype

Ahuh, you read right. David Archuleta at M'sia, Sunway Lagoon Amphitheater 11/04/09!! I remember jumping around my house when I received the sms from Digi that I had won 2 tickets to it :D If you think winning 2 was lucky.. Chonek (Chun Yeen) had 10, yes folks you read it right T-E-N TICKETS FOR ARCHULETA! How he got em still amazes me. The fact that all he did was ask his dad is so... Wow.

Anyways, having 2 tickets, (again, flashback 26/7/08), this time I called Ash along. We left at about 11.30 and arrived at Pyramid at 12. However the entrance to the amphitheater was waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay at the back. Like beside Sunway Medical Centre. Yes, that's a real long way away. So we had a couple of hours to loiter around Pyramid b4 having to head down to Lagoon. So we grabbed lunch at McD (the usual place) then walked around looking for 10.8+C's. *winks* :D

So by the time we were done eating, Chonek, Jon, Alicia and the rest were all already there. Jon and Alicia were pressuring me to get in quick and mentioned smth about a crowd of 3000. *gasp* so yeah it was pretty crowded. It was only about 1 and the showcase starts at 3. But for the sake of getting seats, I thought we'd try to head down there early as it'll be about a 10 minute walk to the entrance. BUT, Ash had to find some tattoo shop, no idea why. So we headed over to Asian Avenue, couldn't find it, went all the way to Hagen Daz to look at the directory, then went BACK to asian avenue, and still couldn't find it. Sad, no?

So finally we headed to the taxi stand to get a taxi. Normally, it'd cost about 5 bucks to get down to Elephant walk from Pyramid. But.. Yes here comes the but, Ash heard the guy in front of us mentioning that place and asked if we could tag along. And what do ya know, he let us :D. I has his pic which I shall upload once I transfer it xD And he didn't even charge us :D!



After that, the walk into the theater was rather uneventful. Just alot of walking. The task at hand was to locate Jon and the others among a crowd of 3000+ or so once we got in. A task made simple enough with the help of making a call, standing in the open, and finding some dude (Jon) in a red shirt waving at us from somewhere in the middle area and top row of the seats.


Aly with Kah Man standing in front of the fan.


Jon and Ash got sleepy.

Just like the previous time I went to smth like this, the showcase started at about 3.30-4. Almost an hour after the time stated on the ticket. Well there's always a delay for some reason. By that time it had begun to rain, so at least it was cooler in the crowd. Did I mention how hot it felt? So anyways, the opening act was some Chinese guy who I mistook to be Daniel Lee. Yes, lol. Then it was the guy from 1 in a 1000000 1. Then after that it was the actual Daniel Lee. Flashback to Daughtry when Daniel Lee was also there. Meh.

Finally at about 4.30... DRUMROLL pl0X. lolx...... dadadadadadad



DAVID ARCHULETA!!
"Am I crazy or falling in love, is it really just another crush?"
Yeap, the crowd went berserk. In terms of noise levels that is. I was almost deafened. Lolx. Alicia, Krystle, Kah Man were all screaming (of course). Me and Jon, meh. Ashvien looked bored (D:!!) and Chonek looked lost. Lmao. But smth that would make the day perfect was missing.. =/ Well.. Third time's the charm perhaps?
So back to D.A! He started off by singing "A Little Too Not Over You" which was.. A-W-E-S-O-M-E! Followed by "Touch My Hand" and "Don't Let Go". And the 4th song was.. I can't remember!! AAAAA?!

Yeah, it he only sang 4 songs. Of course the crowd'll scream and shout for more, which they did. :D! Archuleta came back and sang another 2 songs, "Angels" and "1000 miles". I think he sang a 3rd one as well but I can't remember the name. The atmosphere was incredible.

After that me and Ash had to get back to Pyramid, somehow. Jon and Chonek was gonna follow Aly home. Not sure about the rest. So we thought we'd get a taxi, again. We walked all the way down to the hospital, then turned back and ran into Kah Man and the rest. Got all the way back to the entrance of Elephant Walk, then turned back AGAIN to the hospital. -.- and of course to make it all better it started to rain again. It was a 10 minute walk back in the rain. Which was... wet. Lolx

To shorten the rest, got back to Pyramid, ate Pizza Hut, then went to Haagen Daaz, ate really awesome ice cream, then my parents came to pick us up. The end.

P.S. Can't wait for another concert related event. Although I ain't exactly the kind of person who'll jump and/or scream at such events. PARAMORE/MUSE COME TO M'SIA! Lolx.

Yes and smth still feels wrong.

p.s. again. I can't upload pics anymore cause for some reason my firefox can't open pop-up windows, like the ones that you get when you click on Add Picture when writing a new post. So if you'd like to see pics, go look em up on my FB when I upload them.

Tuesday, April 7, 2009

Theories on life

Being constantly bored (as usual) and being constantly bugged by ash (also as usual), we decided, or rather he did, to come up with random theories on life. Ever heard the term hot chick? Well contrary to popular belief, the term hot chick can't actually exist. This is because "chick" is already a hot girl, and adding "hot" to it would make it hot² girl. After numerous calculations, we came up with the perfect formula for hot chick.

Hot Chick
= hot hot girl
= hot² girl
*integrate it
= Hot³/ 3 + girl²/2 + C
= (43)³/3 + (47)²/2 + C
* the number would be too huge so add the numbers in the brackets so..
= (4+3)³/3 + (4+7)²/2 + C
= (7)³/3 + (11)²/2 + C
= (7)³/3 + (2)²/2 + C
* add the numbers in the brackets until it's a single digit.
= 114.3 + 2 + C
= 116.3 + C
* having already done random crap with it, we square rooted it to reduce it's number
= 10.78 + C
= 10.8 + C
AND DONE!

ps. don't ask why we used all the weird way of finding out the answer.
The original value of Hot Chick was 42.5, but after further research (as I've just demonstrated) it's been found that it is actually 10.8 + "C".

Yes, this proves just how bored I am right now and yes I'm well aware I should be studying.

Monday, April 6, 2009

Anticipation

Exams, monthly tests, or even any other word that can be used to portray similar meanings. Yes, it's that time of the year (well one of the times) when the school's gonna.. Test you, on your mastery of your erm.. Education. Thus, studeh! Like anyone actually does that. Okay maybe someone do that, but hey, it's just a monthly test, no biggie. As usual being me, I put off studying till the last minute. Expected, no?
So far I've managed to read up on my history, physics, and a bit of chemistry. I haven't touched Add Maths, Biology or Moral. So basically I'm gonna be screwed for those 3 subs. Less than 2 hours before I'm heading off to bed and waking up to face the 1st day of a long week and I'm still in front of my computer typing this post.

So far, besides the constant calls Ash is giving me, studying's been.. "okay". Almost done with Physics and History and did half of Chemistry. Time to finish up the rest before heading off to bed. For some reason, the feeling of anticipation is buggin me. You know that feeling something's gonna happen, and you just can't seem to wait for it and/or perhaps dread it? Your heart starts beating faster and stuff like that. Okay maybe not that but the bottom line is it kinda gets you all jittery and spazzy. I keep pacing up and down for no reason -.- and for some reason the words "being exploited" keep popping into my head. Paranoia again >.>

Hopefully I'll be able to stop worrying. Emphasis on the "hope". Back to reading. Yes "GASP!". Ciaoz.

Wednesday, April 1, 2009

April's Fools Day

Yes people, it's that one day of the year where everyone goes nuts with practical jokes and/or pranks. Well, most people do. Too bad today was rather.. boring. Nothing big happened. In total, I pranked once and got pranked twice. All were minor pranks anyway. Lacking the necessary stuff to post about, I just did some research *cough*copy&paste*cough* on what April Fool's day is all about.

April Fools' Day or All Fools' Day, although not a holiday in its own right, is a notable day celebrated in many countries on April 1. The day is marked by the commission of hoaxes and other practical jokes of varying sophistication on friends, family members, enemies, and neighbours, or sending them on fool's errand, the aim of which is to embarrass the gullible. Traditionally, in some countries, the jokes only last until noon: like UK, Australia, New Zealand, Canada and South Africa, someone who plays a trick after noon is called an "April Fool". Elsewhere, such as in Ireland, France, and the USA, the jokes last all day.

The origin of April Fools' Day is obscure. One likely theory is that the modern holiday was first celebrated soon after the adoption of the Gregorian Calendar; the term referred to someone still adhering to the Julian Calendar, which it replaced. In many pre-Christian cultures May Day (May 1) was celebrated as the first day of summer, and signalled the start of the spring planting season. An April Fool was someone who did this prematurely. Another origin is that April 1 was counted the first day of the year in France. When King Charles IX changed that to January 1, some people stayed with April 1. Those who did were called "April Fools" and were taunted by their neighbors. In the eighteenth century the festival was often posited as going back to the times of Noah. An English newspaper article published on April 13th, 1789 said that the day had its origins when he sent the raven off too early, before the waters had receded. He did this on the first day of the Hebrew month that corresponds with April. A possible reference to April Fools' Day can be seen in the Canterbury Tales (ca 1400) in the Nun's Priest's tale, a tale of two fools: Chanticleer and the fox, which took place on March 32nd.

What? I needed something to do, and posting this was something. I got bored of reading Chem. Yes, I studied D:! What else is there to do when gaming's getting repetitive and boring?