Finally getting started

It's the last day of February, whoa.. waaaaaay too fast :(!

Finally got band practice started yesterday, with auditions barely a week away. Booked the studio next to MaxValu at night. Met up at PapaRich for dinner 1st. Drove to Gazi's to pick him up then met up with Darren and Kai Xiang. Driving at night is nerve-racking xD. Thankfully I didn't hit anyone on the way there. :)

Went over to the studio at 8, got set up and Sam came. And what'd ya know? Darren left his lyrics at home. Urgh. So we jammed, and jammed, till 9.30. Least this time round it was a success. And gawd was it fun :)

Went over to MamaKandar to lepak awhile, and watch football, ManC vs Chelsea. Ash joined us. Woot ManC thrased Chelsea 4-2 :) Oh yeah, the cheers were awesome

Gonna go over and practice again later this evening.

Tomorrow, no more fooling around. Time to get serious and focus on my work and studies. Hopefully I stick with that I say this time :P

I don't know

What I'm doig now, am I just being selfish? I feel as though I've wronged someone.. Being all nice and friendly initially, only to completely change without a reason. Although I didn't exactly ignore that person, just changing my attitude towards that person.. *snap* just like that, kinda leaves guilt on my conscious. Maybe it was the constant stuttering, or perhaps we didn't really click the way I was hoping we would. All I'm certain is after THAT day, thanks to an AWESOME "friend" of mine, everything I had felt changed. Am I feeling regret? I no longer recognise this feeling, despite the amount of times I've felt it.

Guess the 1st time crushed all my courage. Remnants of what's left of it is nowhere near enough to fix anything.

Those aside, been feeling kinda down again lately. I guess it's just envy again. I loathe myself for having such a nice chance and making the most of it by.. standing in a corner not doing anything. Urgh! *knocks self on the head*. Then again, I didn't expect it'd be her of all people anyway.

Tomorrow Never Comes

Urgh, I feel it already, gonna be in a BAD mood over the next few days.

Cold and alone

My head's killing me. F*ckin headache.

Spread these wings

It's starting to become clearer now, there's no point reminiscing and regretting the past.

I'll keep the memories, gifts, photos and whatever that reminds me of what's passed. No, it's not because I'll never be able to move on. After all, you can never ever forget someone or at times.. several people who meant THE WORLD to you, am I right? It'll all be a token, or a reminder to show how much things can change in a blink of an eye. One minute you can be the best of friends, and the next, complete strangers. Funny how fate can be so cruel at times.

The "undying" flame has been put out, for that I'm grateful. One less worry to plague my thoughts. That settles one, took it long enough. Time's the only medicine for these kind of wounds. Another one's been nagging my mind lately though. I have no idea what was I thinking then, it probably would have worked, and yet it came to a complete standstill, meh.

Now? You'll just have to wait and see :)

Edit: Seeing her face again brings pain to me. Strange, I'd always thought she was a temporary distraction. Nothing more. Note, it's gonna get a bit confusing from here. I'm referring to 3 different people using the same word. So yeah. And I have no intention of clarifying which one I'm talking about now. Though it isn't the 1st, I'll never speak of that again. I don't know why I just.. stopped trying. I've had more time than anyone needed, and opportunities more than some people can ask for. Maybe I should have made the most at that moment, but I guess I was too.. preoccupied.. "jumping around", what can I say? There were thousands with me, metaphorically speaking. Urgh, why am I thinking of THIS now? I do NOT know. MUST I go through this phase EVERY TIME?!

But what I DO know is.. who means what to me now.

Contemplation

I feel like an insignificant speck of dust in an ever expanding world. :(

The holidays are coming to an end. It's been an enjoyable week if I say so myself. Just bringing myself to come to this page and writing this post took a lot of effort out of me, not taking into the account that my arm's aching now thanks to badminton this morning. It's been what..? Over a year? Since I last played badminton. Then again I didn't really SUCK that bad.. unlike SOME people, so SIU JE just stand in a spot and expecting people to hit the shuttle towards them. Just stand and "tan sai kai" only. I'm just saying~ I'm not implying anything and this is NOT meant to be anyone I know so please DO NOT come and hunt me down. :D

Went Sunway Pyramid on Wednesday. Watched 2 movies. Spent 16 bucks, the 1st 8 bucks was so NOT worth the cash. Wolfman, was SO awesome. You've just gotta watch it TO believe it. 14 blades was AWESOME *no sarcasm here* full of fight scenes and cool characters :D (well.. as cool as ancient china characters can get) Won't elaborate on the details cause I'm too lazy except for the fact.. GAZI's an AWESOME SNOOKAH PLAYAH~!

Which brings us back to today. Went to Maybank AGAIN and still can't open an account, stupid computer system's DOWN. URGH.

So yeah.. got nothing left to rant about.. at the moment ;)

I see right through

The thought of her brings a smile to my face :)

Yeah I know, another random update. ahaha!

Then again I think I'll write abit. Yes sir ree people, it's the HOLIDAYS! I get a whole week off whooooo! The weekend has been.. rather boring. Didn't go out. Spent the past few days stuck at home doing nth but online-ing! Muahaha.

Planning some form of outing soon, gonna go "clubbing" LOL.

I also installed some ancient game into my comp and surprisingly enough.. IT WORKS! It's a game I used to be addicted to while I was in primary school.. like.. 8-9 years ago? HAHA, daaaam old xD Requirements Windows 9X. YES LOL! Sadly Sims2 doesn't work.. My comp can't read the CD. :(!!

That's it.. for now. I'll be writing again soon. Hopefully ahahah :)

BUH BYEEE

I'd do it over again

I seriously don't wanna spend this CNY the way I spent my last one :(

Somethings I'll never know

Maybe I'm just acting up again. I'm starting to realise how some people are more important to me than they think.

I guess it's just the fact that I feel comforted at the sight of a familiar face. When you're surrounded by faces you do not recognize, you long for someone, just about anyone that you're comfortable with, just because you know that person. I guess that's what's happening now. Perhaps it could be a positive thing, I don't understand why I never bothered before.. Or perhaps I did, once, way back when someone asked me a question "Why don't you ask her?" and I simply shrugged it off.

I get jealous when someone else has her attention, it pains me whenever I miss out any chances I might have had, or screwed up those that I had gotten. Why Kino why?! Why can' you do anything right? :(

1,2,3,4~ So many chances, just as many failures.

Sometimes I wonder will I ever make something of my life. I'm filled with envy everytime I watch people walk past me, livin' their life to the fullest while I'm sulkin' at whatever I'm doing.
Words fail me at every conversation, I'm always stuck being the silent one. I listen, I laugh, I agree to ideas, and that just about summarises my role in any conversation. I never seem to be able to do anything more than that, and I'll just kick myself later on about how I never seem to accomplish anything. But on the rare occasions that I do, it really is worth it :)

CNY break now, I won't see any of them for a week :(

Writer's block. I can't think of anything else to write!

Just thinking.. Some bastards really need to be screwed upside down. They don't belong in this world :)

Friday is now declared COUPLE BLACK SHIRT DAY <3

5 guys 1 elevator LOL

Today was spectacularly awesome :)

Although it started off on a really BORING note. Spent 90 minutes in the library in the morning since everyone else had classes. This is why I kinda dislike Tuesdays and Thursdays. Boredom in the library :(

10.30, whoo! Everyone came out d, met up Gazi, Prem, Jo, Marc, Kelly and Suqi. Went to eat at My Signature (Yes, that's the name of the place). Hou Yin joined us later on. Had Sweet and Sour Chicken a.k.a Ko Lou Yuk but chicken version. Ahahhaha! So yeah, the food was ok ok larh.. Trying smth new is better than Orange / Medan everyday. Lawls. And so began a retarded bet which made the whole day.. really "miserable" LOOOOL haha Gazi Thx4$$, although I didn't get any :(

Went over to SC after that. Played ping pong awhile. It was.. really retarded. The way we played. LOL. Me / Prem vs Gazi /Kelly. I could barely stop laughing, ahahhaa. And Gazi had the most epic bat, one without a handle. LOL, spent about an hour there before heading off to bio.

2 hours Bio, 1 hour Phy. Woohoo teacher let us off 1 hour early in Phy! Yeah!! Went SC again LOL this time for foosball :). Lepak-ed awhile sambil tunggu the rest for SP outing. My 1st with the rest of em :)

Me, Gazi and Prem crammed in Suqi's car. Singing "2 is better than 1" on the way to SP HAHAHAHA daaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaam funny xD

Walked, walked, walked, WALKED, WALKED, Oh my god the walking! We went at least 6 or so circles in the same few places. Deja vu~

Pics..? On facebook :D

Spiralling

It's been a while. The past few days have been SHIT to say the least. I won't go into details cause most of you already know. So yeah, that was some epic shit. Stupid greenhorn, dam yeong sui summore, felt like slapping his ***** face. I haven't felt so pissed in a LONG time..

Managed to get back to Sunway in time for Physics. Although I missed Prem's speech =(. No worries prem, you still have my undying support LOL.

Thanks for calming me down :)

2 hours till classes begin. Whee, it's gonna be another long day.

Prem-onition

VOTE PREMJEET FOR PRESIDENT OF AUSMAT STUDENT COUNCIL 2010~!

One thing's certain

Thought of the day : She is the only exception.
Listening to : FM Static - Take Me As I Am

I've managed to get myself tangled in another web, and I can't escape.

I hate being stuck in the middle, having to decide which path I should take. I s'posed it's cause I started getting somewhat.. desperate, so the only person I can put the blame on is myself. Maybe I haven't exactly strayed too deep for my own good, but I know I'm starting to get attached. Perhaps I'm fooling myself again, or it could just be another case of temporary infatuation. Who's to know?

Hopefully this sense of paranoia and isolation wears off by the end of this week. Usually it'd take a day or two anyways.

Gawd I'm so bored, Tuesdays and Thursdays are so boring :(! The 1st 2 hours that is, all I ever do is "lepak" in the library surfing the net, the exact same thing I do at home, whee.

Envy turns to disgust

Funny how my life revolves around such trivial issues.

It was like that back then.. and it still is now. Guess that's just one part of me that never changes, and probably never will. I don't really know what's going on in my head right now, but I'm certain that is definately isn't anything good.

Whoo, emo Kino's back :D

Went to Freshie Night yesterday, I don't think I'll write about it, there's nothing much to write about anyways. The only things I can remember clearly were.. a girl puking after gulping down a jug of water, some dancers... some POLE DANCERS (yippee) and a band. The band was.. ok ok larh. Couldn't really hear their 1st song, American Idiot. Their 2nd song, 21 Guns was wayyyyyyyy better.. until the guitarist lost the beat sometime at the end. Ahahah. Everything else was pretty much a blur, can only remember the night vaguely.

Then it was randomly jumping at the end when the music came on.

Tired as hell, and not in the best of moods now. Still got an hour to kill before it's time for Maths. Oh the joy.

Oh, and.. she looked dazzling :P

Thought of the day

MILK!

She Seemed So Far

I'm getting really lazy to update lately :(

This is prolly be just a short update of the past few days.

The weekends were boring, as hell. I'm starting to like weekdays more now, weird no?
Had driving lessons on Sunday, spent half the day there and came home tired as hell..

Monday's officially Foosball day and Physics is now Camwhore class. (LOL)

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