With each passing day, the moments become harder to endure. Why is it that when everybody is going about making use of their lives am I wasting mine away, doing nothing for myself?
I know there is nobody but myself to help find a driving force in order to motivate me to do something and yet, I find it hard to just break out of a old and very cliched routine. Wake up, stone, sleep.
I need to start reading, or studying. Whichever works. At least till I get that letter I so desperately want.
A few years ago I was obsessed with trying to better myself. I wanted to see quantifiable results, and I allowed that obsession to rule everything I did. I'd study and practice the things that were important to me as many hours as I could, and the things that didn't better me were pushed to the side.
ReplyDeleteIn the end, I was burnt out and still going. I had lost enjoyment in my studies and hobbies. The people around me had gone off and done their own thing.I did all that for what end? Happiness? It's odd, because I don't remember a lot of happy times back then.
It took me a full year to break that mentality. I had to constantly fight urges to work on stuff all the time.
Motivation works a lot like momentum. If you feel you can't do anything at first, just try to do a little bit of something. Anything. It'll become easier for you to do it as long as you make a little bit of time for it.
If you push too hard, you'll just burn out. It's the same reason so many New Years resolutions fail. People often let passion bite off more they can chew at first, and then they just give up, instead of taking it down a notch until they can handle it.
Hope the rant helps you some. I feel strongly about not letting people make the same mistake I did (especially with you going to college!).
Wow.. True, obsession rarely ever leads to anything good. Ranting does ease my mind a bit. I guess I just don't like having anything to do, contrary to a lot of people who seem to be enjoying their holidays.
ReplyDeleteI thank you for your words, it really helped motivate me. :)